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2010-10-26T23:24:00.004+08:00

So stressful sometimes

Ever since i entered UBD, i wanted friends, i needed friends, cause the old ones seem to drift apart little by little every single day. Now im afraid that im losing my old friends. sure i've already made new ones but lets be honest, the new friends wont be like the old ones, even these new friends have their own old friends to keep in touch with so its like we can be close friends but just not that close. Its like im counting down the number of friends i have left and they seem to dwindle down. why cant the old ones and the new ones mix? i mean i'd like to be friends with both the old and new but alas...

These new friends, i actually like them, i probably love them but sometimes i just feel out of place with them like how did i become friends with them? how did they become friends with me? i feel very insecure sometimes like are they friends with me because they have ulterior motives? or do they pity me since i dont seem to have friends? all these things crosses my mind everytime im with them. Because i know im not the most interesting guy in the world and sometimes i seem a bit weird and awkward (which is mostly the reason why i have difficulty in befriending people) but people like me once they get to know me, right? sometimes i restrict myself when hanging out with the NF cause im afraid that if i make one single mistake i'll lose them as friends. Yes, im a loner and sometimes enjoy being alone but sometimes the loneliness eats me up inside and makes me feel depressed and empty.

While the old ones seem to have issues with each other. The OF are drifting apart with each passing time eventhough once in a while theres a reunion, some barely talk to each other which sometimes wound me considering we used to be close.

I need friends, friends that could lift my spirits up when i myself cant. Friends to share my endless problems with. Friends that would not judge me if they knew sometimes i would become unstable (like now). Friends that would not take advantage of me. Friends that wont hate me for being who i am...

I need friends... cause family is not enough for me, i cant be myself around my family but i can be myself around friends. My friends are my family too, it takes more than just blood to create a bond. Every bond that i make is important to me, be it a bond between family or a bond between friends but if any of those bonds break it will feel like losing a part of myself cause i give out a piece of myself with each bond. I know its foolish to want to be friends forever but the truth is even if that friend forgets me or gets over me i will always remember them jus like how i remember my past friends, the ones that left and even the ones that betrayed me. Thats just how i am, im loyal to a fault. Which makes me feel kinda stupid cause i put so much energy and trust in all of my friendships eventhough i know sooner or later friends will leave and depart from my life to get on with theirs.

Basically i feel lonely. With the old friends floating away and the new friends being new that its too early to trust them fully, i just feel soo alone everyday which makes me sad and unstable and aches my heart... Its been a while since my mood had darkened like this. It does not feel good...

alone and depressed (i feel pathetic)

What a day!

2010-08-15T00:09:00.003+08:00

Okay today was the big day for my presentation and boy was i nervous! My heart felt like it would leap out of my chest and do the riverdance! But thankfully i wasn't the only one who got nervous, as they say, misery loves company, HaHaHa... XD

Anyways, in the end, our presentation was not bad, it didn't stink nor did it rock, it was just so-so which was fine by me cause when it was my turn to present, i was a hot tranny mess!!! But fortunately Hong sucked even more than me so he took the spotlight away from me so i was loving him today for doing that. What was more painful than the presentation was the question and answer session after which we barely survived thanks to our leader Azim. Plus, i'm hating on one of the guys who asked us questions cause his question was downright fucking cruel!!! I hate you guy whose name i don't know and wont care to know! I'm keeping my eye on you so you better watch out bitch! Anyways, got a little bit carried away there, the lecturer said our presentation was okay but needs a hell of a lot of work, so yay! us!

After the presentation, i accompanied Dee & Azim with their admin chores and whatever until i could meet up with Lala & Yul cause i wanted to discuss with them how to commence out ELAL assignment. Ain't i lucky? After 1 assignment is done, i go straight to doing another 1 and i'm still left with 2 other assignments, life is so full of joy! T_T"

Anyways i met with Lala & Yul at the library, where they are also trying to finish their CL assignment, so basically i actually came there for nothing cause they ended up spending the whole time tring to do thei own thing while i do mine, which was no biggie since i've only known them for like 2 weeks. Moving on, during my time at the library i met many people i knew like my cousin, Freak's Brother's Fiance, Zack from orientation and Hafiz from orientation so that felt a little bit weird, in the end after spending about 2 hours in the library, i failed to accomplish nothing so instead i decided to just quit and go home and live to write another day... =)

Special mention: fast forward to when i was performing the terawih prayer and met with an old friend, Wafi whose on semester break from his uni at Hull UK. We just talked and talked and totally forgot about the witir prayer! hahaha, it was fun catching up with him... XD

Fasting

2010-08-12T16:50:00.003+08:00

Yay! today is the first day of ramadhan and everyone's fasting, everyone is going to starve themselves in the name of god, plus, to some, this is a good chance to diet and lose weight, and for those who do both dgn ikhlas with the former than good for you!!! =D

Since its the first day, and its a public holiday, today's fast is going to be easy but once school starts again, baru tya sandi! Hahahah, like me, im fasting and im trying to finish my uni assignment so my stomach is grumbling and my head is banging... i've been given lots of time to finish the assignment but i just cant do it... I'd like to just throw myself at the wind during the presentation but im in a group presentation so if im throwing myself at the wind, im bringing them with me... I FUCKING HATE THIS!!! Not to mention i have no idea what to do for this presentation, i mean i've found the necessary info but i just can expaqnd it and make it intellectual and uni is all about intellect...

*inhales* *exhales* *inhales* *exhales* i really need to chill and mellow out since im fasting but i've been chill and mellow since yesterday... the pressure of uni life is getting to me, i mean like, after lecture yesterday i went straight to the beach on my lonesome and just let go of life... i was like catatonic, i mean my body moved, as in i drank and ate the snacks i brought with me and i smoked the cigs i brought too but my mind was a total black hole, i thought about nothing for more than an hour and once i started to think again, i felt depressed. Cause the fact that i went to the beach just to think about nothing leads me to believe that i've lost my enthusiasm to live...

Which sounds so sad but its not uncommon to me, where is last year whenever i used to lose my reason to live, i would just cut myself but now, since i have a car and a driver's license i can freely handle my stress my own way, by thinking about nothing while lounging around at the beach... Anyways i think my original topic was about fasting but i just got carried away elsewhere sooo have a good fast everyone and wish me luck in my life cause i think i need it... XS

here's a fun take on puasa/fasting =)

Workload

2010-08-10T22:14:00.002+08:00

So the rentals are back today from their vacay and i wasn't there to pick them up... but my blings did, cause was busy trying to find info for a presentation this saturday... its only week 2 of being a uni student and already the assignments are piling up! i fucking hate this! i have an mib presentation this saturday, another presentation for English literature due for the next 2 weeks and an english language & linguistics essay about what language i use with my family due in september... So i really feel like crap right now... T_T"

Anyways these past 4 days when my parents were away, i totally did not waste my freedom cause i spent the whole 4 days chilling for myself and hanging out with the besties! yesterday i watched a movie with the besties and i really had a great time... i spent so much time with my besties because after yesterday, i know my schedule will be swamped and i wont have time to spend with them anymore plus yesterday was my last piece of freedom since the rentals are back today...

right now, im actually supposed to find more info for the presentation on saturday but my mind feels just so blank! im a person who loathes work plus, presentations and research are not my thing but alas! these cruel assignments go with being a uni student and im kinda thinking of dropping out and live my life simply which is impossible cause life aint simple. *sigh* i guess i'll resume the research that i was doing... wish me fucking luck! XD

Yay?

2010-08-06T21:06:00.003+08:00

So today, dropped off the rentals at the airport cause today their travelling to Johor, Malaysia cause dad is attending an internet trading seminar and mom is joining him. I was supposed to join them but boohoo! I cant cause i have lectures, tutorials and what not... But on the plus side, im free from the rents for 4 days so yay! and being the opportunist that i am, the minute i reached home, i went straight to Mimi's house. Myself. Using the Ford Everest. My initial excuse to my bro was that i wanted to pick up some stuff mimi borrowed which is actually true but also i decided to hang out and chatted with him at his house...

Poor, Mimi! It seems that the injury he had last year is still hurting him. His leg was bandaged very very tight! So we talked and talked and it turns out that the reason his injury is coming back is because everytime his injury subsides, he would go play football therefore bringing more pain to himself. He's such an idiot! Hahahaaha...

Anyways while there took some pictures... and i became Mimi's audience while he ripped on his guitar so the afternoon was good eventhough it was short... And now some pics!

The Ugly Truth

2010-08-05T21:14:00.002+08:00

So lately i've been seeing many people post on facebook about being honest and what not... they're saying like they'd rather be told the horrible truth rather than being lied to. Which is utter bullshit! I mean whether your told the ugly truth or been lied to, i suspect our reactions will be the same, the only difference is the time delay of our reactions...

dont get me wrong, i do believe that honesty is the best policy. In fairytales! i mean we live in reality, its not like in the movies where everytime we're being honest and tell the truth, we get a free pass for doing the right thing. Trust me, i speak through experience...

So what if lying is dishonourable? if you lie to protect yourself then thats okay... lying is only not okay if it causes harm to other people. if the lie is to protect you and wont hurt anybody else then thats totally fine... Besides, a good lie is such a terrible thing to waste... =)

A New Begining

2010-08-03T23:11:00.004+08:00

Today is the 3rd of August 2010... Which means its been quite a long time since i've last posted anything on this blog of mine... The lack of posts is mostly due to the fact that i was lazy. But not anymore! Last time i posted, i was just finished with my A levels and just started my very very long study break... Now, im already a University student and now approaching week3 of my 1st semester... The reason im starting to post on my blog again is because another chapter of my life is starting and i wanna recap each and every moment of it... From this day on, its a whole new beginning... =D So im sure i'll be posting stuff regularly since there is a whole lot of crap to deal with in this Uni life so things are bound to get interesting. even though its only been 2 weeks, i've been really enjoying myself, meeting new people, making new friends and learning something new. The only regret i have is not being able to spend time with Zid anymore cause he didn't get into UBD, instead he got into ITB, which im thankful for cause basically our colleges are next to each other so we get to meet each other every lunch time and im grateful for that...

Well, thats all i gotta say for now... And wish me luck! Cause i'll definitely need it... XD

Sunrise, the symbol for a new beginning

Books, Jobs, Jogs... What else is new?

2009-12-15T19:22:00.004+08:00

With more than a week, i've finished my latest batch of novels and it feels like crap cause now i have nothing to do again! Soooo, bought a couple of books just now to add to my collection which i will never read again~~~ Seriously! i know that its healthy to read books but novels are fucking expensive! plus, i'll probably never read them again! i mean who reads a novel twice, huh? Dont get me wrong, i love books, but if i were to add up the prices of all the books i have now, i'll probably faint due to the 5 or 6 figure numbers... The only reason i read books is mostly to pass the time so i wouldn't get bored... The only solution would be to get a job but im still weighing the pros and cons of that decision, i wanna have a job but since im in a state of having no driver's license, its kinda hard~ Not to mention my perfectly flawed social skills, i mean, i've never worked a day in my life, i'd probably kill my boss in less than a day of working... *sigh*

But seriously, i dont mind if i dont have a job as long as my days are interesting, another reason im weary about getting a job is that my parents promised me to go on vacation next year so if i have a job, i wouldn't be able to go vacationing with them would i? I've been thinking about my dream jobs like working at a bookstore, or a DVD store, or just a cashier but most of these jobs are dominated by women!!! i weep at the prospect ='( So, i'll probably give up cause dad's trying to find me a job by using his long list of friends and connections... I hope he finds me a good one... My parents aren't forcing me to find a job, which is good, but then, my holidays are long and i'll always need money from them, which is bad... Ohhhh, my head hurts just thinking about it cause i really feel guilty about taking money from them...

Okay, enough with the jobs cause i wanna talk about jogs =) or Jogging cause lately dad's been bringin me and mom jogging, which is good cause it adds another activity for me so i wouldn't get bored just lying at home... Yesterday at Bukit Shahbandar and today at Damuan, man my feet hurt but the thought about getting healthy and skinny overpowers the pain! hahahah! i really wanna lose weight before i go to any Uni because since there are no guarantees that i'll be going to a Uni with someone i know. So i'll probably need to adapt well, and i know this sounds horrible but skinny people tend to find friends easier than fat people... It sounds horrible i know, but im not talking about someone's size relates to their personality, im just sayin that people/humans are shallow, and shallowness seem to have an aversion to fatness, and to adapt you need to fit in and if your small like everyone else you wont stand out... Now, if im goin to Uni in Brunei, i wont care what i look like but if im gonna study abroad and away from family and friends, i'll need to adapt and connect with people easily to have a support net... The truth is ugly and thats how it goes so hooray! for the beautiful skinny bitches! i mean, people! and boo! to the fat ugly ones which includes me~~~~~~ ='(

Its sad, i know, but what can you do? just shrug it off... Below are the books ive read for the holidays =) all of the are really good, Good Omens is a bit complicated but the story is nice =)

Life's Good =D

2009-12-06T14:40:00.002+08:00

My parents are back!!! They arrived on 2nd December, and life for me has been very good cause i get to spend time with my dear mommy and ignore the existence of whatsherface. Hahahaha... My Bro's been very good too! He's more rounder now, soo Haha! We've been watchin horror flicks at midnight for the past few days along with LP and some other cousins. Like i said, life's good for now =)

So, since my parents are back, i get to be a spoilt brat again! Hahaha, just kidding! Im not that spoilt~ =D
Anyways, I,ve bought aome very awesome DVDs to watch with my bros and some Novels (Finally!) for me to read during this very very very long holiday. I totally went all out in buying the novels cause its totally been a while since my last novels and i believe that i had "Book Withdrawal" symptoms a while back, but all of that is gone and im simply able to enjoy a good book. Although, i've still have a problem about finishing a book a day cause at this rate i'd probably be out of books to read in a week or two. With that, i really need to read my books in moderation and control my bookmania...

Anyways, i bought the books yesterday at Reader's Haven at Jerudong. My parents dropped me off there while they had some bank transaction to do. I was content with this because for me, book shopping is very delicate at takes time, i tend to not 'Judge a book by its cover' literally, so i surveyed through the genres which i sometimes get confused about especially with 'Supernatural/Paranormal' and 'Fantasy'... You see, my favourite genre would be the former which is 'Supernatural/Paranormal'. In my mind, 'Paranormal/Supernatural' would be about Vamps, Ghosts, Witches and Weres. And 'Fantasy' would be about Fairies, Elves, Pixies and Ogres or whatever. The problem is, these 2 genres seem to melt together as one like Charlaine Harris' Sookie Stackhouse novels, where there are Vamps, Were, Witches and now Fairies & Maenads are included. I dont mind the 2 genres mix but what i do mind is the classification of this new Genre, its now not 'Paranormal/Supernatural' nor is it 'Fantasy'.... I've grown a fondness of this new genre and its hard for me to find it cause i have to look under both 'Supernatural/Paranormal' and 'Fantasy', although most of the new genre are put under 'Paranormal' i just cant shake off the feeling it also belongs in the 'Fantasy' section and sure enough some of them are put under there too. Its very confusing for me so i tend to just survey all of the other sections...

Anyways, i bought 5 books yesterday and it costed $80+, Damn! i kinda felt guilty about that but i thought, "Bukannya Selalu", and just forgot about cause Dad also didn't seem to mind... Im quite happy with my selection although im also dissapointed cause i couldn't find anymore books from Lillith Saintcrow but i did find a book by Terri Pratchett which i wanted to read ages ago and now im able to, Yay! =D

I guess, My life is happy for now, But just wait till the results season cause im not quite sure of my grades~~~ Mom&Dad want me to study abroad but im content with studying here near home but i'll do whatever to pleas them. But im just afraid of what will happen if i dont get to study abroad. I'd hate to see the look of dissapointment in their eyes... ='(

But whateverlh~ Heres a quote from one of the new books that i read and finished in one day! (1 down 4 more to go!);

"Whats the worst that could happen? You'll die but we dont know if thats a bad thing" Kitty & The Midnight Hour by Carrie Vaughn

Hi My Name Is...

2009-12-01T02:38:00.002+08:00

Hi, My name is Wardi and im a cutter... When im in complete emotional distress i hurt myself physically usually by burning my skin, pounding the walls till my fists hurts but mostly by cutting using any sharp objects i can find... I know its stupid but its the only way to stop the pain inside, the physical pain makes the emotional pain feel better... It does sound like im an unstable person but i cant explain what people may not understand... Im not suicidal, i dont want to end my life, i want to live to see another day... I dont know why im posting this but something in my gut tells me that i have to... I cut my arms recently and its hard to hide the scars, if people saw them they'd probably think im stupid or probably crazy but like i said, i cant explain what people may not understand...

I just cried a river ='( "Prayers for Bobby"

2009-11-29T18:32:00.003+08:00

Okay! Seriously!!! i just fucking cried my eyeballs off and gawd that was frickin refreshing to let all that raw emotion just gush out in the form of tears... I was watchin Ben 10: Alien Swarm and the guy who played as Ben really intrigued me, he's not that good lookin but theres something about him that makes him compelling... So, i wikipedia'd the Ben 10 movie then i entered the actors wikipedia profile and i was suprised to see that he played a gay character in a film called "Prayers for Bobby".... Now, i've heard about this film from Afterelton and it was supposedly remarkable soo i tried to watch it on youtube and guess what, i was able to see the movie from youtube, the full movie...

In "Prayers for Bobby," Mary Griffith is a devout Christian who raises her children with the conservative teachings of the Presbyterian Church. However, when her son Bobby confides to his older brother he may be gay, life changes for the entire family after Mary learns about his secret. While Bobby's father and siblings slowly come to terms with his homosexuality, Mary believes God can cure him of what she considers his 'sin' and persuades Bobby to pray harder and seek solace in church activities in hopes of changing him. Desperate for his mother's approval, Bobby does what is asked of him, but through it all, the church's apparent disapproval of homosexuality causes him to grow increasingly withdrawn and depressed. Guilty over the pain he is causing Mary, Bobby moves away, yet hopes that some day his mother will accept him. His subsequent depression and self-loathing intensifies as he blames himself for not being the 'perfect' son and is driven to suicide. Faced with their tragedy, Mary begins to question her faith when she receives no answers from her pastor concerning her devastating loss. Through her long and emotional journey, Mary slowly reaches out to the gay community and discovers unexpected support from a very unlikely source. The film is based on the 1995 Leroy Aarons book of the same name. Written by Louie Neira

This story is truly amazing! it really touched my heart cause i could really relate to the story. I cried my eyes out after watching this film cause i was truly touched by the love of the mother, eventhough her love and understanding was too little too late... There are a lot of things that are outstanding about the film but i cant describe it with words, you just HAVE to watch the film on youtube, seriously, it really is beautiful!

Absence makes the heart grow fonder

2009-11-25T00:07:00.002+08:00

Its been about 3 weeks since i last saw my Parents and Bro and ever since then im really starting to miss them... Since i've been stuck living with whatsherface, my life has been very empty for the most part, dont get me wrong, i dont hate her family i just hate her... The only thing thats keepin me sane and entertained are my lappy, some DVD's and my besties whom i hang out with to relieve the pressure of living with a control-frickin monster!

Sometimes the bitch means well but her overall attitude trumps her good natured-ness which i barely even see evryday. I mean she always yell and yell and yell and yell even more that sometimes im considering to ask my Dad for soundproof walls. She's a damn riot and not a good one! I also realise that she is somehow tryin to rekindle our sibling relationship by inviting me go out with her and her family but everytime i turn down her offer. Thats because, i really do feel left out when going out with then since im not one of their family members. I know im family to them considering im whatsherface's lil bro but i dont feel any kinship when im with them, i only feel kinship towards my nephew who sometimes hate me for no reason...

Face it, my family is Mom, Dad and Bro... They make me feel that i belong, for reasons unknown to me, maybe because i just dont have any love for whatsherface and her husband, i dunno why... Sometimes they disgust me, i dont have any fond memories of me with whatsherface let alone her husband whom i dont have anything in common with, i see these 2 everyday but thats just it, we're not family, we're just strangers living under one roof... I know i sound horrible for not recognising one of my own flesh and blood as family but its true... i dont feel any affetcion for those 2, none, if this were a normal day where mom, dad and bro were here, i would avoid them like a plague, they make it easier for the whole family to avoid them cause they spend most of their time in their room... But now, they tend to go out of their room more which still freaks me out cause im not used to seeing them walk around in the house... Ugh~~~~~

I really miss mom, dad and bro, i know i always complain about hating them but thats waht families do, to an extent, they hate each others guts but still maintain affection for one another... Thats why im kinda reconsidering an attitude change once my parents and bro come home cause seriously, once your left with whatsherface i cant help but to realise that my parents are softcore compared to that bitch! I really really do miss them and i wish for their safe arrival...

Absence does make the heart grow fonder =)

Z's Humiliating Celebration

2009-11-22T00:53:00.003+08:00

Okay, we celebrated Z's Birthday today and it was damn hillarious and damn awesome cause Freak and me were able to make things happen for Z and we were also able to very well humiliate him! hah!

To start off the day, or in our case the afternoon with watching a movia at the mall, before all of that, and before pickin Z up, Me and Freaky discussed very hard on how to really suprise Z, although we didn't have any idea, i thought up about suprising him with dinner at Pizza Hut! Unable to think up any other great ideas we just went with my Pizza Hut idea~~~ and damn, it apparently turned out to be a superb idea! So, this afternoon we decide to watch 2012 and damn! it was great! although a bit too long but the special effects gave me goosebumps! Since the movie was more than 2 hours i bought 2 popcorns and a drink while Freak bought 2 drinks! Which was a decision he regretted afterward because by the end of the movie his tank was totally full beyond the limit! Even i who just bought 1 drink had a full tank at the end of the movie! hah! poor silly little Freak! hahaha!

We planned on going to dinner after the movie. Now Z didn't know about this plan so we just told him to follow our lead, so we led him to Pizza Hut and he was like "I cant afford this!" hahah, Oh Z, mcm nda pham sja, hahahah! So we went in and ordered a bunch of stuff while Freak and me were discretely discussing on how to make Z's birthday celebration more memorable! So we had this really awesome idea! i suggested it and freak perfected it! We were both gleaming with anticipation when everything was set! So we ate and ate and ate until we were so damn full and were cracking jokes along the way...

So once everyone was done eating, Freak gave the signal and THEN all of the Pizza Hut staff surrounded our table bringing an ice-cream sunday with a lit candle singing happy birthday to Z in 3 different languages, HAHAHAHAH!!!! At first Z was like "siapa bday ni kn?!?" and then when the Pizza Hut employees obviously sang to him, he covered hi face for a long while cause he was damn blushing! hahahaha! Me and Freak laughed the whole time seeing Z get embarrased! hahahahah! When the singing was over and Z blew out his candle, he was very furious at us in a good way cause he was soooo god damn embarrased! hahaha, you should've seen em! it was sooo damn adorable! hahahahaha, frankly im worried cause he swore to return the favour sooo damn!

Note to self: Avoid any restaurants or food joints during my birthday! hahaha!

Afterwards, we spent some time at Z's uncle's house and just hung out, talking, laughing and having a good time! Boy, i'll never forget this cause truth be told, this was the first time Z experienced this sooo ahahahahahahaha! sweetnaiveandadorable Z!

Gilrs... Errr... I mean, Guys Night In!

2009-11-16T21:57:00.004+08:00

Girls Night! Hah!

Last night was so fun! Okay, okay, I was helping Freak with his Art thang and had to go home early cause Whatsherface doesn't want to leave the house empty for some reason! stoopid, considerin even before mom and dad went for the Haji, the house was always empty! So spending time with Freak had to be cut short but wait... Freak says he wants to continue his work at my house cause he claims that he cant finish it without me so i said okay... But, before we went home which was probably at about quarter-to-six, i bought some DVD's cause of my situtation where i really cant ask whatsherface to bring me anywhere, therefore its really hard for me to buy DVD's... Anyways, bought a couple of DVD's, bought some snacks and drinks then went home... My home...

As soon as we entered i ushered Freak to my room and switched on the Wifi so he could preceed with his work... Anyways for a couple of minutes, he was able to continue with his work but THEN he wanted to watch the DVD that i bought cause he was like whining so much about his work! Hahahaha...

Unfortunately, i bought a DVD that we both loved to watch and there goes the night... We were watching the last disc of Drop Dead Diva on my laptop, we both sat in front my lappy and scarfed down the snacks that i bought with each hugging a pillow cause my room was soo damn cold last night! if you could imagine what we did with the pillows last night, it would probably look like this...

Wait... that looks soo gay so imagine it looking like this!

There! this looks less gay right???

Hahaha, we spent the whole night watching 3 episodes of DDD back-to-back until it was getting late~~~ and it was still raining soooo, brrrrrr! it was cold! damn it! We actually huddled up in my blanket~ of course, Freak! covered his whole body while i only got to cover my legs! Damn, hypocrit! hahaha! The Disc actually had 5 epis but since it was gettin late, we settled for 3 plus we were in dire need of more snackage! So, we warmed up for a while, to take out the frostbite out of our system and went to DQ and had a very delicious blizzard which is ironic considering were whining about the cold earlier. FYI Freak warmed up by pole dancing so i'd just like to say, The Horra! The Horra!

Last night was fun mostly because of her!

Literature, Why hath thou forsaken me?

2009-11-12T02:55:00.002+08:00

Seriously??? Damn it! literature is fucking hard okay??? i mean i've just started reading on 'The Duchess of Malfi' (Finally!) and damn! it aint frickin easy to picture the whole story considering i dont even know what the hell their sayin! I know its my own fault for not entering class during the lesson course of this play but hey, we only started this play 2 weeks before the exams started soo even if i attended, there wouldn't be much time to finish it considering the amount of time it takes to analyse just one scene of the play during classes! Plus, even when attending Lit classes, i'll probably fall asleep like i always do, hence the title as 'sleeping beauty'. Dont get me wrong, Lit is my best subject but its subject im really bored with! If i understood the play completely then i'll probably love it but since most of the plays that we study for literature use some sorta shakesperean language i am totally baffled by it hence not loving it! Plus, this is the first literature 'book' that i have total difficulty in finding the notes online, i mean damn! I have to pay just to read the analysis and study guide for the play??? What is up with that? Greedy lil bitches!!!

To tell you the truth, literature is the subject im most afraid of cause im just not sure about my potential. I got an A for my AS but im not sure its due to luck or just true talent cause i totally didn't give a 100% during the AS. Thats why im so scared cause with literature, everything is unexpected, your analysis might be damn great but f the marker is not in sync with your idea thn you'll probably get screwed. I think my ideas are great but sometimes my analysis runs way too deep which is actually good but will the marker get me? That is the big fat question! Im seriously effing scared yo! I would probably be ok if i had someone to study with for Lit but damn! I am totally anti-social during lit classes except to very few people cause basically, Lit students are mostly made up by the higher-ups. Higher-ups are people who are on the top of the social popularity list, they are upper class kids who i presume have fun by attending parties and social events and whatsoever. Their kinda like the norms, perfect to say the least and i just cant bear to start conversations with them. I feel so low when im in their company and i dunno why considering know most of the higher-ups because i went to the same school as them. Even back then they were like the 'everybody knows us'... Its not that their snobs but iits evident that the way they act reflects their social and economic status. People like me dont mix with them, i kinda belonged with the juvenile group where we just joke around all the time and disrupting class by my damn loud laugh. Anyways, i like them but i just cant find common ground with them thus i am unable to interact with them.

But there are higher-ups exceptions like Munii, she's a higher-up but also mix with the rugged higher-ups, rugged higher-ups are more or less the same but their fun includes some deviant acts like smoking, drinking and whatever that is deviant, this also includes wild parties. My kind are well with the rugged higher-ups cause they tend to be more open, humble and non-judgemental but still, higher-ups are higher-ups, we dont mix with them that much... Anyways, this is why Lit is hard for me, i lack focus and i lack companions to discuss it with sooo with all my heart, i hope that i dont screw this cause im still eyeing that Lit scholarship....

Just testin

2009-11-11T01:53:00.000+08:00

Imma postin from my damn phone ya'll! Aint this kewl!

Whatsherface, Dancin and Z

2009-11-11T01:01:00.002+08:00

Hello there, things havent really progressed from my last post, i mean everytime i wanna ask something from my sister i get scared shitless... My shampoo has been out since last week and im just barely getting by with adding water to the remaining shampoo solution! I dont have the guts to ask her to buy my shampoo cause theres only 1 place that sells my shampoo and it is totally far and if you knew my sister as long as i do, you'll know she's not the kind who would interrupt her spare time by doing a favour for her lil bro. Another reason for me to hate her so much that cow!

In other news, i've been very interested in dancng nowadays =) i mean, i've been dancing my ass off everytime i hear a rockin or poppin beat and dancin used to be a huge no-no for me cause i used to be insecure about dancing considering my size. But now im like nodding my head like yeah! swinging my hips like yeah! i love the feeling you get when you dont have a care in the world and just move your body to the music with such passion and animality that you wanna just keep on dancin so the feelin wont fade away! I've finally experienced the therapeutic effects of dancing and i am loving it bitch! haha! plus! in the light of all these shows filled with dance routines such as Glee, So you think you can dance? and Superstars of dance, i find that all the different genres of dance contain their own kind of unique beauty, like the elegant yet edgy moves of Vogueing, the time-warping awesomeness of pop'n'lock-ing and the beauty that is ballroom dancing. I just love it! Like, today i watched the whole 2 hours of So you think you can dance and yesterday i totally loved Superstars of dance, damn! im gettin pretty obsessed. Maybe this obsession came due to the lack of anything to do in my part, but hey, this new obsession of mine is pretty cool! haha!

Oh i almost forgot that yesterday i totally had fun hangin out with Freaky, Nysa and Yaya... Freaky needed help about some art thing where i had to take pics of him at the beach, at first t was only me and Freaky and then i invited Nysa who then brought Yaya. We spent most of our time yesterday at Pantai Tungku. We arrived there about 2.30 pm and left at about 6.30 pm! boy did we have fun! hahah! its been a while since i've hanged with Nysa so yesterday was totally refreshing cause i miss that bee-yotch sooo much! hahaha! a guy like me must have his hag ok?!? hahaha! Although, Yaya was pretty awkward, seriously awkward, i mean when i tried to like interact with him, it was like i did all the talking while he just listened and responded in the form of 1 sentence each time! So i was like wha??? seriously, there is no pleasing that guy! Trust me, i like him, he doesn't have any evil, bad or annoying personality traits at all but i just find difficulty in finding common ground with him, believe me, i've tried and for countless times i have failed damn miserably! Its okay though, i guess we just dont have chemistry or sparks together.... Unlike me and Yazid...

*sigh* Yazid... I miss that SOB, i was hoping that he would join me and Freaky yesterday but no such luck! he had to study for an exam he had! Damn, if he didn't have to study, we would've completed our triumvate! Sometimes im always thinkn about my friendship with Z because our friendship is like nothing else, we seem to be 2 different people with totally different interests yet when we're together, fireworks happen! haha! Thats the reason that sometimes i call him my soulmate because he's seriously my bestfriend to a point that eventhough we're separated, once we meet up, its like I/He never even left my side... Even other people have pointed out the uniqueness of our bond which some people found weird to a point that they thought we were an item which was very gross! i can imagine myself dating anyone except Z! hahaha! Its very funny actually, we've been bestfriends for a very very very long time! You can say that were childhood friends actually cause i knew him since we were about 6 or 7 years old. Back then i didn't realise we would turn out to be perfect for each other, hahaha! I mean He loves sports, I dont, I love anything fabulous or glamorous, he doesn't, I think about other people, he's selfish and so on... see? were like totally different yet you cant deny our bond! hahaha, For my whole life, i've been searching for friends like Z yet none can measure up to him, its like with the others, theres something missing but i dont know what. Who knows, maybe our friendship was destined by fate, maybe we really are soulmates of the friendship kind or maybe its just something mundane... Whatever it is though, im just hopin that our friendship will last, you know? Cause Z is the bestest friend i've got, He's my brother from another mother! =P

And i do love him like a brother and a friend... Nothing more and nothing less....

Hear me rant!

2009-11-09T00:54:00.002+08:00

So like oh my god! its been a very long while since i've blogged about anything... Well, you know how it is, now we've got Facebook, Twitter and yadda yadda yadda... My mind has been too simplistic to write a post, so simple that im just using facebook to describe what feel daily with more or less one sentence, aint that just grand? So its been like almost a month since my A-levels started (Yes, the most dreaded exam of the year!) and suprisingly it has not been that very stressful~ Well, maybe because for the whole duration of the exam season i've been hangin around with Zid and Freaky and making fools of ourseles as we hang out! We dont just hang out, we actually, well, occasionally study together but that only took us about a couple hours. Once we gie up on studying, its off we go to the beach! Yes, we go to the beach everytime! You might be thinkin that we would get bored of hangin at the beach everyday but no, we dont get bored, each and everytime was fun for us... Anyways, theres only 1 exam left for me and that is English Literature, which i havent even touched! I havent even read one of the books which is "The Duchess of Malfi" which by the way is very effing boooorrrriiiiiinggg!!!! Hahahaha, Its so funny that the subject that im most good at is the subject that im most bored with! I really need to fix that problem since im targeting a Literature scholarship~~~

Enough about academics, its time to hear about my personal life which by the way has probably improved, probably.... Im really starting to miss my parents and my big bro since they left for the Haj which was last tuesday. I know i've always said a million times that i hate them but we're family, sometimes we hate on each other but most of the time we love each other, at least thats what i think! hahahaha! Now im left with Sis and god almighty she can bitch! She bitches so good, aint nothin she cant bitch about! hahaha, seriously! Living with this woman is like livin in a minefield, i gotta watch where i step so i wouldn't be blown up to smitherenes! I fuckin hate her, unlike my other family members whom i have a love/hate relationship with, when it comes to my sister, its a hate/hate relationship! you can practically count how many minutes she's been nice in a day! I really hope i can survive!

In other news! Z's got a girlfriend and im am so damn proud of him! i swear to god, that the minute i saw that his facebook status went from "its complicated" to "in an open relationship", my heart skipped a beat cause i really cant believe that my bestfriend's all grown up! After that i just felt a wave of nostalgia and went on thinkin about love~~~ see, i havent actually found anyone, i didn't even TRY to find anyone! I suddenly thought up about how im gonna meet my true love and damn it was cheesy! So after givin this some serious thought i finally went outside for a smoke and then guess what happened? While i lighting up a cigarette, i looked up ath the clouds and i saw this cloud shaped as a heart and i was like whaaa??? i figured that it was a sign whether i should start tryin to find my soulmate or that Z's relationship is really born outta love considerin that i saw the heart-shaped cloud right after looking at the change in his status... Man, i totally felt weird yesterday watchin the cloud cause i really do wanna find my true love but i just dont know how, im just too scared~ Ive had my heartbroken, dozens of times and i wasn't even in a relationship back then! The people i used to love never loved me back cause i was always the friend, never the lover so its no wonder i have a hard time trying to find someone~ And sometimes the people around me aint makin things easier, theres pressure for being single nowadays and i hate that very much... The ones who are passing judgement arent even in real relationships! sure they have girlfriends/boyfriends but when you ask them why they cant stay a single day being single they'll answer "being single is boring!" which is stupi cause that means that they're in a relationship just for fun... Puh-lease! Honey! that ain t a relationship! thats just a fling! So what if i wanna wait for a relationship with someone i truly love huh??? So what??? A relationship without love somehow feels useless and empty......

FuckFuckFuck... MuddMuddMudd...

2009-10-04T14:52:00.002+08:00

Oh fuck it! What a pretty fucking brilliant start for a pretty fucking brilliant day! i mean seriously fuck! For fuck's sake this morning was one more fuck away from being one of the most fucking jynxed morning of my fucking life... Today there was a wedding or a nikah or what fucking ever, its not important. Usually i dont attend these things cause frankly their fucking irritable and boring unless you have someone to talk to where in my case i dont so there was nothing for me to do except sit there like a fucking vegetable... Urgh~

Anyways, we went to the wedding/nikah thing at about 11.30am and damn this morning was fucking HOT! i mean seriously it was damn hot and i was wearing a double underneath my cara melayu so you can imagine the buckets of sweat i was producing. On second thought dont imagine it cause its fucking gross. Anyways, its been a while since i've attended shindigs like this so i forgot how unbearably long this bllody event was! i probably fell asleep 5 times while sitting up straight and god help me i was thirsty! my head was rocking back and forth cause i was constantly falling asleep! Okay, so we started waiting at about quarter-to-twelve and the eating starts at half-past-one so the process of waiting took more or less an hour and a half soo yeah im feelin grumpy about it. Here comes the irony, once everyone finished eating, THEN the storm came! i mean why couldn't it have come earlier to spare us from the heat stroke?!? i do admit that the wind was very strong and the rain was damn drenching but i think its better than a heat wave, right???

Once the storm came, everybody went home cause the wind was so damn strong and the rain was so damn heavy, me and my paents were about to head-off when whatsherface whined to daddy that her car was stuck so we had to help and her fucking car was stuck on someone's yard in a sort of mudpit... i along with other people were asked to heave-ho the car while my mom was doing neat tricks with the car from inside, while under the fucking rain! i was asked to push behind the tyres and guess fucking what? the mud came straight at me and i was covered from head t toe with stinking mud!!!!!!! I mean for fuck's sake! i was the only one who got sprayed with that much mudd! its so not fucking fair! i had to take a second shower and profusely clean my cara melayu! thinks could not get any worse and if it does than thank you to the cosmic powers above for making this day one of my fucking worst!

James Dean tribute~ (My new idol)

2009-09-27T09:48:00.001+08:00

A whole lotta Peace and Luv

2009-08-29T23:11:00.002+08:00

Peace and Love to everyone!

Im supposed to be finishing up 2 of my essays that are to be handed in tomorrow but try as i might, i have no power to finish it~ instead i watched Step-Up2:The Streets and took these pics which were inspired by vloggers from YouTube who call themselves Pat and Carolyn, they created a montage of pics of people doin the heart hands where you use your hands to make a heart shape! It was pretty sweet so thats why i did the heart hands myself cause theres just something about it that just moves me...

Anyways more pics of me and heart shaped hands below! Have fun!
Btw i was supposed to upload the pics of me and my 2 besties took yesterday where we sungkai'd together and went to JP~ Had total fun with those 2 knuckleheads and at JP we bumped into some familiar faces and actually made some interestin friends! i'll try to upload tomorrow if i can~ =)

I heart U

oooooohhhh~ Luvin U babe
Happay Heart!
I heart U (in writitng)

Hey! My Disco stick! =)

Take care luv

Vogue~

2009-08-29T05:54:00.003+08:00

dont you think i look hot?

on the same day i was almost cast out of the class, i and feeqah were bored as hell cause we didn't enter any other classes so we took pics! hahahaha, oh how the youth have stooped so low~ anyways~ the picture of vogue is me striking a pose or vogueing~ Hahaha, it actually makes my hip sore but its my favourite pose, rugged ah! inspired by Benny Ninja from the House of Ninja... Actually, the ones in the room were Me, Fiqah and Mira but Mira was busy making love to her laptop so her pics are not included. If you would've seen the positions she did with her laptop! it would blow your mind! i didn't even think that such a position would be physically possible! Anyways, here are the pics! ot all of them though, i posted all of it on facebook =)

Hillarious vogueing!

whoops! how did this pic get here?!

box pose! (literally!)
howdy neighbour! =)

Move ovah Beyonce! theres a new sistah in da hood!

Call me SiiBulat Fierce!
OMFG

"Get out of the class!"

2009-08-27T10:57:00.003+08:00

fyi, im still happy kay?

Im at school now and its exactly 10.58am according to my lappy and im chillin at the duo-air-conditioned room... hahaha~ santai yo! i've only been to one class today and thats Socio which is exactly the reason why i've lost all interest to enter any other classes today... The reason Socio today was a moodkiller was because i was asked to get out of the class all because i felt asleep in class! i mean what the hell kn tu??? i was just innocently sleeping for probably about 10-20 minutes and when i woke up she was like, "Wardi, you can get out of the class if you find the class boring, if you dont wanna listen then get out cause its annoying me", and i was like Whoa! hold on a minute! in my mind though... so you can imagine how very shocked i was, hahaha, so i played the words inside my head to figure out whether i should really get out or just stay in class...

In the end, i just stayed cause by leaving i would add fuel to the fire and i totally wanted to sit-out through the whole period without getting burned. So i stayed and shut up while keeping myself fully awake. The atmosphere was like totally awkward! everyone was silent, there wasn't even a whisper! daym! she is FIIIEEEEEERCE! Anyways i felt that that was uncalled for because the guy behind me to my left sleeps during class everyday and he was never kicked out! how come i was? i mean it was my first time! Well, actually not my first time but it was the first time i got caught, anyways my point is that it was so unfair! hmph, whatever... plus, when i woke up from my LECTURE-INDUCED slumber, that 'guy' was still sleeping, in a sitting position nonetheless!!! Urgh... im just a bit pissed but just a bit cause i do not let things like that affect me, by the time i was outta the class i was smiling cause it was pretty awkward trying to pass her to get outta the door, hhahahaha! SERAM!

MOST. TERRIFYING. EXPERIENCE. EVER.

PS: FUCK YOU VERY VERY MUCH!

im still happy

happy-go-fucky

The AS results

2009-08-27T05:24:00.003+08:00

YEEEEEHAWWWWWW!!!!!!!

The AS results came out on tuesday and you can just imagine how hectic school was on that day, it was like whaaaa? everyone was goin out of their classrooms and crowded the notice board, it took me like almost half-an-hour to actually reached the notice board to check out my grades... I actually knew about my grade on my monday due to the sms register shit and the only reason i actually took the time to claw my way to the notice board was to make sure of my grades. That and to blow off much of maths time as possible, yeah! what? you know i hate my math class, its like evryday blah blah blah differentiate X blah blah blah Integrate Y blah blah blah. Such a freakin snoozefest! plus, nowadays, numbers make me nauseous like hell! i mean, i get why maths is important, you know, the multiplication, division, addition and subtraction shit but everything else is like whoa!

Anyways, my AS results... Im proud to say that i scored for the AS! Oh yeah! i got an ABCC yo! which is great enough for me... My grades according to subjects are;

English Literature~~~~~~~~[A]
English AS~~~~~~~~~~~~~~[B]

Sociology~~~~~~~~~~~~~~[C]

Mathematics~~~~~~~~~~~~[C]

They are da bomb ryte? haha! i actually didn't expect my Lit to be an A cause i was hopingt to get an A for my EAS cause i poured my heart and soul into it during the AS but according to the breakdown, my compo paper got an A so i can totally dig that! i remembered i wrote a story that involves a guy, a girl and a colour-shifting magic rose, like whaaaa? i actually loved that story! wish we were given our answer papers back cause i really wanna make a continuation of that story in my mind...

can you see my grades? haha!

Im really happy bout my results, but im still gonna retake my Maths and Socio cause i think i can do better than a C for Socio... oh yeah, and maths... wish i got higher so i could drop these 2 suns cause i find them difficult, yes, i find them difficult rather than Lit. I actually didn't study much for the AS Lit so it was quite suprising when i found out about my grade, hahaha. Im a natural ya'll, wooohoooo~

Its now 6.25 and im havin school so yeah, BOOOORIIIIINGGG!!!!! the last few days of school are very interesting, found an empty all for ourselves, complete with an air conditioner~ not just one but two so its like freakin cold there! sadly the room is on the second floor so its kinda exhaustiong when walking from classes to the room and i swear to god! ever since we hanged out at that room i lost some weight! but its probably just wishful thinkin. hahaha, just yesterday we were like vogueing in that room like crazy! apparently vogueing is not easy! its like couture yoga so my joints are feelin very sore for trying one of their poses and by 'their' i mean Benny Ninja and the house of Ninja!

strike a pose and work it!

Oh yeah, lately i've been watching Psych seasons 2 and 3 and it is awesome! its just so funny, there are no episodes i dont like and i love them characters especially Shawn and Gus, they da bomb!

I've gotta get ready for school now cause dont wanna repeat performance of yesterday where my dad was fuming! hahah, batal puasanya yesterday! hahahaha! Peace out ya'll!

Back from my hiatus baby!

2009-08-23T21:58:00.002+08:00

So my last post was apparently on the 12th of July which means... (calculating in my head) its been 5 weeks and 1 day since i've posted anything on this dear old site of mine! its not like this blog of mine gets hits or anything so yadda yadda yadda... hahah! a lot has happened in the 5 weeks and 1 day that i havent been blogging, there were bad things that happened, there were good things that happened, enraging things, annoying things, weird things and even plain stupid things which i do not care to list down cause the length of the list would be from here till BSB... Maybe im exaggerating, i guess from here till jangsak would be a lil bit accurate. Seriously. Im not kidding. Its that long. Trust me, i've measured. Anyways, i think a summary of events that passed should be enough if i remember them all that is...

Well, the events that im gonna list down are not in chronological order so bear with me cause 5 weeks and 1 day is a pretty long time k and i dont have an eidetic memory, i barely even have a strong memory let alone an eidetic one! Here goes:
Well, there was a fight between someone i know and another someone i know and the first someone i know showed a different side of himself which was unexpected of him and the first someone i know pummelled the second someone i know. poor lad. tsk tsk tsk.
I found out something disturbing about someone i know and it. is. creeeeepyyyyyy. and sad in a way. O! wat has the world come to?!
There was my mock exams which i apparently sucked at. hard. I seriously need to get my shit together.
There was also a day where me along with the others skipped school and went hangin at another friend's house. Apparently it was a very enjoyable experience. (O.<)
Oh yeah! and of course there is swine flu! i almost forgot about that lil sweetheart! haha!
I also found a way to 'accidentally' bump with the love of my life, ooooh, im good~
Apparently, i also found out that one of my first loves is actually a lower six in katok but she doesn't remember me. I do though, God, i really do.
I no longer exist im my maths class evn when im present! have i gone invisible! i mean seriously? no one notices me? screw it!
Its gettin harder for me to wake up during Socio =)
2 of my friend's birthday had passed (Ash and Mira) last week.
Yazid, Freaky andd Me are spending much more time together, last week went to the movies with them and yesterday went to the beach with Freaky while PUASA!
Im catchig up on the Psych series, hahaha, James Roday and Dule Hill are HIGHLARIOUS!
Im now into a kasturi phase where every drink i order must have kasturi in it to a point where my mom bought me a whole bag of kasturis which i believe is called lime. i think.
Last thursday went crazy with the guys like good ol' times, we laughed till we got sick! seriously!
Last but not least, we are planning a get together with the other active members of our group to have sungkai together, cant wait!

Freaky Sunday

2009-07-12T23:27:00.004+08:00

Okay tooday was totally fun! Yesterday Freaky wanted me to accompany him on an interview with some Bruneian Artist who he wants to get advice from... The scheduled appointment was at 9am so i probably woke up at about 8am-ish (Jgn Nda Galat! Kalat Mata Wh Lakat!). Anyways he actually picked me up at about 9-ish cuase sii dang klantit atu rupanya akhir bangun dripada aku, hahaha, aku sja yg ngalih2 bekarih bangun awal. Anyways once he picked me up i looked at his artwork that he wanted to get advice on and rupa2nya, comic yg di buatnya ani! Hahaha! The coloured one made me laugh cause it reminded of Yazid and a certain discipline teacher from MD whom i do not wish to reveal. I also read the rest of his comics and some of them are actually very good. Based on idup seharian org Brunai kaliah, buleeeeh. Apparently the artist he's supposed to meet with today made a famous Bruneian comic way back when which i could not seem to recall. The interview was suppose to take place at the Dewan Bahasa Office and when we reached there, kwengkwengkweng! Pagarnya smua betutup. Gila wh! Freaky had to call the artist and rupa2nya the artist thought that the interview was supposed to happen yesterday so we were left there hanging with no idea what to do. Freaky rescheduled the interview for next week while i was thinking about a plan of action...

By our unique creative minds we decided to head to gadong! Gila kreatif ah kmi ah! Gadong wah kmi pikirkn! We probably reached Gdg at about 10-ish and siuuk eh bnyak kadai buka ah! plus today was my first time i went to The Mall in the morning! So once in The Mall we decided to pusing2 mcm si palui dlm mall ah and stopped for a while dpan cineplex. We were just browsing around the movie titles when we saw the title "Ice Age 3" playing at 11am. With just a brief moment of deciding what to do we just went on bought the tickets, hahahahah, because we had nothing better to do. Spontan wh decision kmi ah! Gila! We bought the tickets at about 10.30 and decided to spend the remaining half-an-hour karaoke-ing songs from ST12 and a song called Bersama Bintang (Freaky's Treat). I actually enjoyed singing the malay songs wlaupun bru pernah mendangar so i just went with the flow while Freaky was pouring out his outrageous vocals (D'moz plg orangnya!) hahaha. After that, off to watch ICE AGE 3!!!

Ice Age 3 was damn awesome eventhough i felt a drastic change in the humour, the humour was kinda a lil adult like. For example, when Buck wanted to tell the story how he turned a T-Rex into a T-Rachel. I dunno kids these days are exposed to jokes like that but i just felt a wee bit weirded out cause aboviously the dialogue means he probably cut-off the T-Rex's penis. frightening image actually. Anyways i actually loved the movie BERABIS! and it was fun spending the day with Freaky eventhough kmi balik by pukul 2pm which is very early but whats important is we both had fun and we probably joked about anything through the whole process. Thanks Freak!!!

Ice Age Poster

Freaky

From Now and Beyond

2009-07-08T22:23:00.003+08:00

Okay its already been 3 days of school and since Brunei is having a breakout of the H1N1 virus, a lot of people were sent home and sadly, i wasn't one of them... It only took me 2 days to go back to my class-skipping ways. 2 days. The first couple of days were kinda good, no pressure no stress but then... Everything changed, i can hardly stay awake in Maths and i havent even finished reading the book im supposed to read for Elit which we were supposed to read during the holidays but you know me, i love me a good book and all but this latest book is killing my brain. Not because its bad or anything but its just not the type of genre that im really in to. In other news, Sociology is getting really hard since the topic is about religion and im having a hard time registering it into my brain. really really hard. Meanwhile, EAS, well, i havent actually entered my EAS class but soon i will. Eventually. In other news, Ash is now a technical student so he wont be with us for the whole year which is sad cause he tends to create a very sunny and friendly environment whenever he's around. Im gonna miss that bastard but hey, its a good thing he got accepted at technical. I on the other hand am struggling to be a perfect student cause frankly i do not enjoy learning, i only enjoy writing and that only happens during EAS class which is now not very active in doing creative works ( i found about this through a friend).

Today we actually had a conversation about higher education and apparently i knew nothing of the names and the exams that i'll probably face in the future which led me to question whether im gonna survive in the future on my own. I mean i havent exactly had thought about what im gonna do or what im gonna take in the future but thats because im not sure of anything. Im the kind of guy that believes in fate and for all this time i was counting on fate to lead me. Now im not so sure that fate alone can help me achieve an easy life. Im just too dependent, naive and clueless. I had a deprived childhood where my future was decide by my parents and not me, it still is though and thats why i actually am not ready to face the future. I was practically spoon fed for all my life but im not the only one to blame cause i actually was not given a choice whether or not i wanted my parents to decide for me. Oh Fuck It! I dont wanna think about this anymore... Bye!

I've felt worse

2009-07-01T22:57:00.003+08:00

I went to the dentist today for the first time in my 17 years of living life and suprisingly there was no pain, no agony and actually it felt pretty quick eventhough in reality the procedure took more than half an hour. Ironically the pain and the agony that im feeling now is because of my ulcer filled toungue. 4 big ones to be exact and they are a bitch! Totally making my life a living hell. Anyways, i went to the dentist today because i wanted an extra tooth to be removed because the tooth was scraping my ulcers like crazy. The experience was interesting, i mean there was like a lot of things that i felt was being done to me, i felt the dentist breaking of the tooth, i felt some grinding, some pulling, i felt the dentist sew something inside my mouth, felt the nurse suctioning the liquids and i definitely felt and tasted blood, lots of it. Its pretty uncomfortable really. I find my experience kinda funny because, after i was given the chemical that numbed me and allowed me to feel no pain (i know the name but im not sure of the spelling), practically half of my face from the left side of my mouth to my left nostril was numb for like half a day! Its funny because i could only feel the right side of my face while my left side especially my lips felt tingly and kinda dead too and it also felt sorta plump. Like my lips on the left side were being pumped with something to make them thicker which made me feel like Megan Fox. You know with her very pumped up and pouty lips. Thats how i felt!

Of course now the numbness is gone and i kinda miss that lost extra tooth of mine. Kind of. I have another appointment though with the dentist to take off my stitches or whatever their called. Today, i've gained another life altering experience, this experience totally belongs with the time i donated my blood at school. Mind you that both of those times i thought that it would hurt but apparently both of it didn't. Eventhough both times there was a needle involved. Totally fuckin great ey? I know its lame to think that these experiences are awesome but hey, when your like me, even buying a whole lot of chocolate seems awesome. Actually just bought a lot of chocolate and i feel a sorta rush cause i dont do chocolate. Anyways, these little moments make life a little bit interesting, not in an edgy way but more like a clear "open your eyes" kinda way.

PS: Just watched the season finale of Grey's Anatomy which made me wanna say

I LOVE YOU

to everyone i care about the most and the ones i really cherish (you know who you are!) just wanna mention that just in case something unexpected happens to me or any of you...

LIFE IS TOO SHORT

Another week Holidays, Yay?

2009-06-28T01:04:00.002+08:00

Okay i just heard about the news that the school hols are gonna continue for another week from my dad and i was like "Whaaaa...?" cause its sorta like a dream come true but i think its also a nightmare in disguise cause if there's no school for another week that means i have to stay at home for another week spending my useless existence with my disfunctional family. The thought is scaring the shit outta me! Nonetheless, another week of the hols gives me so much extra time to do my Socio Assignment and read the book im supposed to read for literature which i was supposed to read before the school hols... Plus, i can actually make time now to play with my ancient Nintendo DS which is like a blue whale compared to the Nintendo DS Lite which i hate because of its awesome colours! and its miniature physique! Damn! Anyways, Yesterday i watched Transformers 2: Revenge of The Fallen with Zid and his cousins and it was to me awesome because of its special effects and the humour was priceless. We were actually lucky to get seats to the movie yesterday cause it was a full house and you cant imagine how many seats were booked for the other times the movie was shown. It was like every second there were people buying or booking seats to watch the movie... Anyways i totally enjoyed the movie and if your planning to watch it then take a bathroom break early cause your not gonna want to miss anything and the movie is 2 hours plus soo your ass is gonna be pretty sore but just be patient cause your not gonna regret watching it... Ciao...

GBL Tradition: Marshmallow Madness

2009-06-22T00:42:00.002+08:00

These pics are from the GBL Tradition which only happens every last day of school where everyone of our members escape school and we hang out together, since the last day of school was a week ago, i cant tell you how outdated these pics are. This last GBL Tradition, we gathered at pantai tungku wherein last tradition we spent it at pantai berakas. I dubbed this last tradition Marshmallow Madness cause we went to the beach with coal in hand and spent the whole morning till mid-day burning marshmallows! and they were D.E.L.I.C.I.O.U.S and we burnt/heated/cooked plenty of marshmallows considering how many bags were there, and of course why go to the beach if your not gonna swim right? Im very thankful that i didn't get sunburned again, although saiful and mimi got burned/stung by jellyfishes all in all the tradition was a sucess. In the afternoon, the guys played football at the bc and that was it... Sorry, no pics of the football...

KK blah blah Vaycay blah blah Love blah blah

2009-06-21T01:44:00.004+08:00

Hello!!! This blog is seriously growing cobwebs, dude... hahaha, figures huh? haha... Okay im back from KK!!!! hahaha, what? you didn't know i went to KK? haha, guess maybe i forgot to post it or is it because no one knows this blog exists? hmmmm? Anyways, i went to KK (Kota Kinabalu) last thursday in the morning at about 8am and we landed at brunei at about 6.40pm today/tonight/whatever soo that means our mini-vaycay lasted for 3 days and 2 nights and trust me when i say that we didn't come back empty handed cause boy oh boy our hands were so full of stuff, my hand actually had a cramp...

PSYCHE!!! we didn't come back empty handed but we didn't actually bring back a lot of stuff which means i used a hyperbole! yay! EAS, what would i do without you? hahaha. Eventhough i didn't shop till i drop but still im quite satisfied with the things i've acquired which are 5 Ts (Ts that actually fit yo!), a Dior Cherie L'eau perfume (it smells cytrusy, totally vitamin-C-licious) , a bracelet made of something called Herkimer Diamond (at first i thought it was called Herequiem Diamond which sounds way more cooler than its actual name, such a shame!) , a new leather sling bag (its a sling bag thats leather!) , some totally psychedelic incense (i bought different coloured incense with different coloure elephant stands) , half-a-dozen novels (which im not sure i will read because i like to procrastinate my reading) and 3 pirated DVDs (Wow! i bought pirated DVDs at m'sia!!! hahaha, somehow it adds a little spark to their sentimental value).

To add to that, for the duration of the vaycay, everyday we were certain to stop by starbucks to have a pick-me-up after a whole day of walking endlessly and there my friends/anonymous readers was where cupid struck me with his arrow which went directly to my heart, the wound caused by cupid's arrow made my heart bleed emotion, made my lips curl up into a god damn smile and it made me experience the beauty that is LOVE... Damn you cupid! and if you dont get what im saying, im saying that i fell in love at starbucks with starbucks and the starbucks's cashier. Apparently cupid shot not one but two love arrows, one made me fall in love with Starbucks's Hot Caramel Chocolate, the other made me fall head over hells with the Hot Cashier. Im not sure what her name was but im certain it started with an 'L', Liyana? Lyona? or maybe Lover? Cant remember. Everytime i came to the counter to order something, i try very hard not to look at her cause for some reason she made me smile everytime i looked at her. When she came to the counter to take my order i had difficulty in forming words and i also had difficulty hearing her speak cause when i stared at her face and gazed into her eyes everything around me didn't exist. I blocked all my senses except for my sight and i noticed her slightly high cheekbones, her milky white skin, her pink lips (the upper lip curved slightly upwards) and her pupils that were of brown/black colour. Daym! i really dont sound like myself but trust me when i say that girl is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy outta my league. Im not even sure if i belong in a league.
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Anyways the KK experience was nice and blah blah blah... The 3 pirated that i bought was 'Were The World Mine', 'Push' and 'Night at the Museum 2'. So far i've just watched 'Were The World Mine', its sorta like a musical but actually i really enjoyed it very very very much. The songs in the film were all inspired and derived from Shakespeare's play, A Midsummer Nights Dream and the songs are kinda awesome. Beats High School Musical. Hehehehe... Well, im done so Ciao!

Were The World Mine

The major love in the film

Definitely Something To Think About

2009-06-17T00:48:00.005+08:00

Hello, its been like forever since i've posted a sensible post... I've rarely done any deep thinking lately probably because of the decrease of independent films that i've watched... I just love Indie films because their just totally different than mainstream films which is why they are called indie films because their target audience are not made up by the general public... The last Indie film i watched was My Bloody Valentine 3D and it was totally awesome, the violence and gore are so mind blowing that you'll probably wince everytime a character gets killed. I kid you not, this film is produced/released by Lions Gate Films, one of the most prevalent modern independent studios, and if you actually see the list of the films they released, quite a number of them are a must-watch... Anyways, the film is great and it stars one totally hot actor, and that is Jensen Ackles!!! One more reason to watch this film, hahaha, nothings better than a horror flick with a little eye-candy ey? hahaha...

The hotness that is Jensen Ackles

One example of the violent kills in the film

Okay, Aside from watching this violently gore film, i've been reading this pranormal romance novels Burning Wild by Christine Freehan and lemme tell you this that it is like reading a hardcore porn movie and that is soo not good in a novel, i mean come on! I'd like just one chapter without the main characters describing with excruciating detail their lust and sexual arousal for one another! It is so not comfortable reading about a man's raging hard on and a woman's erect nipples not to mention her insatiably wet vajayjay okay? and did i mention that when they make 'love', its totally hardcore and animalistic that i sometimes forget that im reading a 'romance' novel. What the hell? The reason i bought this 'Adult' novel was that i was trying to diversify the genres that im reading and what do i get??? An erotica novel! I've had the book for over a month and i cant seem to finish it cause the images it created actually almost burned my skull, the biting, the scratching, the violent oral sex, the actual sex and the coming, all so vividly apalling... Im sorry if i sound very hateful on this novel but im just expressing my opinion so again i apologise... Below is the book's cover for those who want a reference for this erotica novel...

And in other news, since the start of the holiday, i've been sleeping in which means waking up late in the morning and the reasons for that are my vividly confusing dreams, i've been having dreams 3 times in a row and the dreams are totally bizarro. Im not talking about a wet dream mind you, but more like fantasy films that were playing in my head. I've been dreaming about asian women with the ability to control lightning, old aged asian men battling with swords, native-american tribe that live as paintings on stone walls, staircases that defy the laws of gravity and a little girl that defies the laws of physics with her agility in a very complex jungle gym. Now you try to figure out what that means. Though its totally cool if you saw what i remembered from my dreams. I've been trying to write what i've been dreaming to make it sort of like a story but they are too difficult to form into words and i mean it! Although it would be cool though to be able to create a story out of all of these but alas! I could not... I'll probably have another dream tonight... I hope so cause they're really interesting...

Well, thats all, gotta go, my dream world awaits....

Happy Holidays Ya'll

2009-06-15T13:53:00.002+08:00

1... 2... 3... HAPPY FREAKING HOLIDAY!!!! YAY!!! Can i get a huzzah? okay, huzzah is pretty lame but its unique aint it? its been a very very very very very long time since i've made a pure blog post mainly because of the AS and because there was totally nothing happening at school... i was gonna post the GBL Tradition pics today but the wireless is too fucked up for me to upload pics... A shame actually but there's always later or tonight... Anyways i just wish everyone a very happy holiday especially to Upper Sixes cause im betting that this is the last holiday before we get bombarded with tests, revisions, VIP day and the menacing mock exam...
Duhn Duhn Duhn!
Cool sound effect huh? hahaha! anyways havent got any fixed plans for this holiday except for a 3 day trip to KK, Playin badminton with the gang and watching Transformers: Revenge of the fallen with Zid... Wow, soo many plans! NOT! Plenty of time to make other plans...

Sunsex Party Pics

2009-06-10T21:53:00.003+08:00

Here are the Sunsex party pics that happened probably a week ago that i was unable to upload due to the extreme lagg of my wireless!!! Sunsex happened on 1st June and it was at Berakas beach, jan nda galat bnyak jilama dang!!! hahaha!!! had fun and nasib baikk nda sunburn, alhamdulilah and overall it was pretty satisfying... Up next is the GBL tradition..... Cant Wait....
PS:Sorry for the lack of updates...

The importance of being idle

2009-05-21T21:55:00.002+08:00

It was last Saturday that i last posted on this blog... Pitiful aint it! Pitiful it is! Well. i've got plenty of reasons for that but the most well-known reason is that im one of the most Laziest person in Brunei! Haha! you thought i was gonna say AS exams right??? hahaha!!! About AS, im not thinking too much about it cause when it comes to major exams i have a sort of process which are;
1st~ I get stressed, become very bitchy, develop suicidal tendencies and i evolve from being emotionally unstable to manic mood-swings... (This process is quite entertaining actually)

2nd~ I study study study till i practically exhaust myself into a state of unhealthiness.

3rd~ Experienced the first exam paper and feel a sense of relief.

4th~ Final stage, i become uncaring and start to treat the exam casually.

I know my mind-process is a lil bit weird but thats just how i am~ Hehehe~ Anyways Last time, i posted that i was done with Maths1 and Eas2, now im done with Elit4 which i was able to go through with a little confidence that i might pass. Tomorrow im having my Eas1 which makes me a wee bit nervous but i'll just play it cool. Which reminds me, ya know what? on the day i was to have my Elit4, instead of studying at school which i planned to do i actually spent my supposed study time to Eat, Watched He's not that into you on my lappy at the library with Nysa and when it was about an hour till my exam i spent that time by getting a good shut-eye! Haha! i seriously need to take this thing seriously but by doing that it just goes against my uncaring nature which is feat that is near impossible! Well, my mind now has gone blank so im just gonna leve it at that.... Heee~ Wish me luck!

Birthday Gurl

2009-05-16T22:53:00.004+08:00

Today is the Birthday of my Bestie!!!! Nur Fadhillah Umu Habibah or N.F.U.H for short~ She's been a good friend for years and although we've kinda went our separate paths, i shall still treasure the memories spent with her and the countless advice and help she has given me. Fadh, She is caring though is sometimes rough, She is sometimes quiet but never fails to voice-out whats in her mind, She is very mature yet there is still a small glimmer of her inner child kept intact, She believes in treating others the way they treat us, She is fair, protective and an all-around great girl, or should i say woman. She is a Woman who is brave, a woman who is bold and a woman with courage, it is a pleasure to be acquainted with an individual such as her. I pray that many blessings come in her direction and i wish her a long prosperous life, Amin~ And to add to all of the above, she is also the type of woman who would say, "I AM WOMAN, HEAR ME ROAR".

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FADH!!! AND HAVE A NICE ONE!!!

A Tribute to GGG and MMM from The Nines

2009-05-16T20:25:00.008+08:00

This post is dedicated to the Film that has shooked my emotions hard enough that everytime i think about it, i try my best not to cry~ Yes its true, The Nines made me cry, if you got a problem with that then F-U-C-K-Y-O-U~ This post is actually a tribute to Ryan Reynolds who plays GGG and Melissa McCarthy who plays MMM, they are the true core of the fillm because they were able to blow people away with their acting skills. I know the pics of Ryan are very... revealing but dont tell me you hate to look at those damned defined abs, you know you love it~ but seriously he's got the looks and the talent to go with it soo i really Looooovvv... i mean i really admire him! hehehe.... Enjoy the pics!

The pics below are of Melissa McCarthy, I know she's not the conventional type of lead actress but her acting will blow you away! Call her fat i dare you! She is although PHAT and that suits her just fine, her role/roles in the film was probably one of the most difficult and most important and she played it like a pro! Props to Melissa! Looooovvvve her!!!!

The AS News

2009-05-15T20:32:00.003+08:00

I realised that i forgot to post that my AS exams are going to start, well its actually started already but you get the point~ As of today, im done with 2 of my AS papers which are Mathematics1 on the 13th and EnglishAS2 which was today and im happy with both exams, Maths rather than English because you never know if your writing will satisfy the examiners creative interests. The EnglishAS2 exam today was actually nerve-racking cause i was afraid that i was gonna experience a mental block but thankfully i found inspiration just an hour before the exam~ All thats left to do is pray and hope my story touches them in some way~ if not then i do not deserve to be called an expressionist writer! whatever that is, cant you tell? i just made that up! cant you honestly tell! whats the matter with you! ANSWER ME!!!!-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------We are sorry for the inconvenience I am Tiffany and it seems that the blogger is having a mental breakdown, the hired help is injecting him now with a large quantity of GHB... Wait GHB??? Hey assholes what are you doing injecting him with the GHB??? He'll hallucinate and eventually die!!! What do you mean you thought it was the tranquiliser??? I told you the tranquiliser was on the shelf to the LEFT!!! LEFT!!! not the RIGHT!!!! Im gonna fuckin kill---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------We are sorry for that other inconvenience, I am Gavin, the blogger is now being sent to the hospital for medical care and the previous spokesperson is currently beating the hired help with a large stick, You think i should stop her? Well, lets let her cool down first. Ooooooh~ Go for his eyes Tiffany!!! Let him feel the wrath of your stick!!! Make him suffer dammit!!! Oh sorry, i didn't realise we were still recording~ The blogger shall post regularly whenever he can, and now i bid you farewell--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Tiffany!!! Is he dead yet?-------------------------No, Wanna take a swing at him???-------------------------------Sure! Take this!!! Next time shut up and listen whenever Tiffany speaks!!!------------------------Ooooooh, Nice job Gavin! You hit em in the eye! Look! His eye is actually out of its socket! Hahaha! Good one Gav!!!------------------------------------Uh Oh, I think his dead Tiff-----------------------------Dammit Gav! Not another one! Gawd! Why do they keep dropping off like flies!------------------------------------Ummm Maybe its because we beat them to death everytime they make a mistake?-----------------------------Hmmmm, you may be right on this Gav, but we only used sticks, and pipes, and knives,Oh and an axe------------------------------What about the time we used a chainsaw?------------------------------Oooooh that was fun! wasn't it?------------------------------------Oh Yeah! Anyways what do we do now Tiff?------------------------------------Just throw him out the back like the rest of em------------------------------------Hey Tiff! The thing is still recording!------------------------What the fuuc~~~ i mean boy Gav! If we actually did that to the hired help we'll all be in jail! Hahaha! i cant believe we actually acted out beating the hired help! hahaha! right? huh?------------------------------------------------Acted out? What do you mea~ Owww!!!!! What the fuck are you-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------End of Recording.

If thats all there is then thats enough

2009-05-14T22:39:00.004+08:00

The Nines consists of three short films, each following the same actors in different and sometimes overlapping roles. Together, three stories form a single narrative that explores the relationships between author and character, actor and role, creator and creation. Alternatively funny and unsettling. The Nines is like a riddle where the answer is the question: "How does it all add up?"

My comment: This film, to me, is very deep~ it makes you think and do some critical thinking~ it makes you think about life and our world. Its one of the best films i've ever seen not just because Ryan Reynolds is in it but also the fact that the way you understand it depends on you because The Nines is open for intepretations~ The Nines to me, on a scale from 1 to 10, its more of a Nine =)

Last book i read~

Forgotten

2009-05-08T21:33:00.004+08:00

Forgot to post these, these are not the current books im reading cause im done reading them so this are the books that i've read~ The series get fun-er and fun-er =P

FAT not PHAT

2009-05-08T20:29:00.002+08:00

AS is in 4 days!!! I cant eat, I cant sleep and I cant even think straight~ Well, actually, i CAN eat and apparently alot due to the AS, i've been binging like crazy cause apparently there are 2 types of exam stress related habits and they are;

1~ thinking about an exam so much that you forget to eat, just study, and study, and study until you get a gigantic migraine and eventually kill yourself either by pills (Panadols, just eat past 10 tablets and your good as dead unless your stomach gets pumped) or by the traditional hanging yourself (which if not done right will lead to suffocation, rather that severing the head from the spine which leads to instant death) or also the traditional wrist cutting (much more effective using a shaving razor, trust me) and other suicidal tactics like jumping off something high (make sure its really2 high cause if you survive, your life after attempting to take your own life would be hell)

2~ thinking about an exam so much that you begin to eat, and eat, and eat, and eat until your belly grows to the size of Mt.Everest which will eventually kill you either by explosion of the belly (which is such a pleasant way to die, NOT) or just plain diabetes (not a pretty way to go either since they'll be hacking limb after dead limb until the diabetes actually kills you so heres a piece of advice, control the amount of sugar you consume) or high colesterol or high blood pressure (which i think will give you a major if not excruciating headache until you pass out if your lucky, if not, then bye2 earth, hello afterlife) and some other medical hoopla.

Well, my major exam stress related habit is Number 2, mind you, im still alive, though gaining weight by the second which in my humble opinion would be due to the large amounts of water im consuming to couteract the confectionaries i've been consuming, i dunno how water counteracts sugar but i think it has something to do with the circulation of liquids in our bodies, ANYWAYS due to this mega bitch of a habit, i am now totally FAT instead of PHAT. Im no longer Pretty Hot And Thick, im just frickin THICK! Curse you stress related hunger! Misery thine name is food, Damn it! Binging is so not my kind of habit but since my future is defined by the results of this year's exams, i cant help but to eat, and eat, and eat, and eat, and so on~ Which is so unhealthy that im disgusted with myself hence the consumption of water to purify my inner being and the sugar in it, i dunno about everybody else whose taking the exam but im scared shitless and i think my psychosis problem is coming back, i sure wish it doesn't but the signs are there, im not gonna linger anymoe on this topic but more about my expanding waistline and the fact that its making me more... Rounder... Anyways now thats its all out there, i feel much better sooo Ciao!
(and i think im gonna have some snackage before goin to bed) =P

4 days of crap and a whole lot of Cigarettes

2009-04-30T22:19:00.009+08:00

My last post was on the 26th, today is 30th, 4 days~ in these 4 days~ Chaos... Misery... Pressure... DVD's... Novels... Green Tea... Root Beer... and a whole lot Cigarettes...

My AS exams are starting in roughly 2 weeks and Damn! Stress is such a mega bitch~ Its probably been more or less a week since i last entered my ELT and EAS class, i havent even started finishing my piled-up ELT assignments but frankly i dont give a rats ass anymore, i have other things to think about~ I've watched the second disc of Reaper Season 2 and im getting more intrigued plus Bret Harrison seems to be getting more muscular. Nice. Missy Peregrym still maintains which is fine with cause she's totally hot! Aint nothin wrong about her. Oh and the one playing the half-brother of Bret Harrison's character, Armie Hammer, is a total eyecandy too~ hehehe~ hotties th bnar~

The Cast of Reaper

Reaper Cast
The Adorkably Hot Bret Harrison
Missy Peregrym, Damn! Such a sexy vixen

Current book im reading~ Delightfully addictive

Too early for Hallowen aint it?

2009-04-26T00:04:00.009+08:00

Im blogging and doing my homework at the same time right now, for your information mind you. I would've done my homework earlier but today i stared my nap at about 5+ pm and woke up about 10+ pm, crazy right? nah! not as crazy as the day i had today, im thinkin that the GBL from PTEK are probably done with their masquerade party which is tonight. This afternoon me along with the other GBL accompanied Nys to athirah to buy maquerade masks for tonight and while she was busy trying out masks which were exquisite mind you, the four of us (Zid, Freaky, Mira and Me) took advantage of being in a sort-of costume shop. Can you say dress-up? Hehehehe~

Me and Afro-Zid

Me, Afro-Zid and Mira-arg!
Afro-bulat, Mira jackson and Zid-arg!
Bulat the Disco pirate, Zid the playah, and Freaky Pink!

Freaky Britney and Blue Slash (you gotta love that japanese bubblegum pop!)

Hmmmm... 2 crazy old hags? hahaha!!!

Eventually, we exit out the shop once Nys found the perfect maquerade mask, went to the BC to drop-off Saiful and Akim then the 3 of us (Zid, Freak and Me) went to eat at Thyes where i found out that Zid actually noticed my unusual quirks~ Heheh~ and we actually talked about quirks which were very informative~ haha, Well thats all so Ciao!

Sooo... What else is new?

2009-04-24T18:06:00.005+08:00

its friday, and i have loads of assignments to do but im just too much of a slacker to even care and i cant even seem to care about the AS cause thinking about it wont change anything... I'd like to approach AS with as much optimism that i can muster because i tend to break down in the exam room~ Damn my timidness! Anyways, im missin spending tym with my besties at MD, although we did spend time together on the 21st April, Wednesday. On that day we went to Brunei's museum because they had a japanese pottery display for Art students and Freaky is an Art student and he brought Me, Yazid, Nana, Gjan and Amey along, we ended up checking out all the displays in the museum which was not much but hey, what'd you expect? hahaha, anyways things at school is monotonous as ever! i tend to wander off somewhere during Maths class and i mean literally, i went out of the class and wandered off... Elit, I dunno, what happened in Elit? (stares blankly into space).... Anyways, Socio is gettin better, i think, oh its gettin better all right and i have a Socio Mini-Test tomorrow! Yay, who doesn't love tests? hmmm?

EAS? no comment there, did i even enter EAS? hmmm? (trying to remember....) Nothing, i think i didn't enter any EAS classes this week, i guess i'll go in tomorrow, what a killjoy, frankly everything about school is boring except for the friends... oh, there was something interesting that had happened in school yesterday and that was my victory over the mega bitch that is ****, i considered myself as the victor though because he went down with a cheapshot, damn, there is no honor in his lost but who cares? i won without using a cheapshot! i think i didn't use a cheapshot! Regardless, it feels very good to be able to one-up him but i think this oral assault on each other should stop but he started all of it and im not the one who would just lie down and take it like a bitch okay? i'll try to let it slide next time but a humiliating demise always makes my day =) Lets just hope he wont start bitching at me again tomorrow, im so tired of his bullshit... Anyways thats all i gotta say and goodbye!

Current book im reading~ Funny!

El-Ninyo! Its burnin hot!

2009-04-22T23:33:00.003+08:00

Is it just me or is the world just getting hotter??? through pure intuition, im guessin the answer would be the latter... Damn! its hot as hell! and there are barely clouds to provide shade from the blistering sun light leaving everyone exposed (baie! stiap hari th beamput sma matahari ah!). I mean seriously brabisly panas plg, but alhamdulilah pasal panas pun, kurnia dri tuhan jwa eventhough kn mati-matian jilama dehydrated! hahaha! but walaupun panas when im in my room i feel so much better because of my dear Snow White (my aircon) cause her cold breeze caresses my skin with such permafrost that my whole body feels numb and i forget about the heat. Wow! poetic eh! hahah!

In other news, school has been shit flushed down the crapper, with all the stuff going on about students complaining about teachers, one of my teachers got affected and he kinda changed... Now he's more bitchy with his snarky remarks, before i would just smile and didn't take it to heart but now its just that his words ooze with venom and it felt like a clear slap on the face, somehow i resent him a lil bit now but who knows what the future may hold so im trying to be patient with the bullshit that comes out of his mouth. Now about Maths, since we changed teachers, my attitude toward maths is worsened, i come late, i sleep in class and the ever original, not even entering at all, SERIOUSLY!!!! im like the black sheep in the class and my maths classmates love to underestimate me and act like im the idiot of the class, well i may be ONE of the idiots in the class but im certainly not the most idiotic. (people have strengths and weaknesses and Maths is my weakness so screw ya'll!). My attitude towards Socio and EAS are still intact though so im not a total loss, hehehe...

Tuition though is a different story, i love tuition! heehee, because thats where i can study and at the same time show my true personality which i dont do in school cause in school i act like a speck of dust, im there, my presence is known but not acknowledged very much. Heheh, the way i think about it is, that its safe to act like you dont care in class because then you'll know whose an ally and whose a foe because some people, org yg D'Moz, like to only associate with the smart ones because it benefits them in many ways thus they ignore the existence of the underachievers. Well, thats just my way of thinking. Anyways i also love my Socio tuition eventhough im in the same group as that Mega Bitch ****, that Fucking Cunt really enjoys making my blood boil, but i also sometimes enjoy our banters because i love to indulge myself in his humiliating defeat once the point is gained by me, Mwahahah! but generally he's an sorta okay guy minus the bitchy show-offy part. =) Well, thats all i gotta say, hehehe, Ciao!

The current book im reading....

Sizzle and Burn You Mega Bitch!

2009-04-19T18:39:00.003+08:00

Time for an update people, i know its been like a week since my last post, that was because of a huge mega bitch that i'd like to call 'Doing my A-levels', seriously this studying thing is making my skin break out ya know, damn! i have tuition 4 days a week for Maths and Socio, and thats at night, i come home from school at about 3pm - 4pm depending on the day and out of those 4 days of tuition, 3 of them start at 5pm and all 4 of them end at 8.30pm to 9pm, and imagine coming home from tuition to do homework because i dont have time to do it after school to save my energy for tuition... im gonna go Crazy! but to counteract this stressful stuff, i've been buying DVD's and books so that i could watch and read secretly in my room without being pressured to study. I mean i've been pressured to study every fucking night of every fucking day of the fucking week and im getting fucking tired! i get the fucking study for my fucking A-levels thing but i also fucking need to release at least a fucking bit of fucking stress, there are at times i forget to eat enough food to give me energy. Oh Fuck It!!!! There's absolutely no use of me writing it here! At least some of the fucking anger has seeped into this fucking post so i feel so much fucking better!

In other fucking news, i've bought 'Pushing Daisies' Season 2 and it fucking cracked me up, and for that specific day when i watched it, it made me forget the things that i was stressed about, thank god for small miracles! too bad the series have been cancelled! what a fucking sad new it is! people today dont appreciate fucking creativity! all people want is fucking action, fucking brain dead comedy and probably just people fucking! pretty fucking pathetic really! dont take any fucking offense really, you dont like what i fucking said then fucking ignore it you asshat! Anyways i shall forever be a fucking fan of 'Pushing Daisies'...

This is the current book im reading, actually fucking good~

Bouncing ecstacy =)

2009-04-12T17:41:00.003+08:00

Its 5.42pm right now and its rainin heavily like somethin in the movies... anyways its very cold by the way, and i just woke up at about 3.43pm, actually i've slept for 11 hours already soo really gila wah tuu yo!! you knwo why? cause i slep at about 4am and you know what i did till 4am? (No! i didn't do anythin kinky mind you) Times up! i played on the bouncer slide!!! hahaha! and my back is achin right now because of the so many versatile landings that lacked any elegance, hahaha! we started playing at about 12am or so, well, the bouncer was there because of my nephew's birthday celebration yesterday which i mentioned in my last post which was yesterday! the reason we played so late was because we waited till all the kids were gone, the bouncer was not gonna get picked up by today at about after 6am or so. So, when the kids were gone for the day, the adults finally came out to play! hahaha, the ones who were on the bouncer slide along with me were my Bro and 3 of my other cousins... hahaha, and lemme say, so much stunts we did, that it wore out our bodies, my Bro even screamed at the top of his lungs when a part of his burned skin was ripped off while he did a sort of back-flip move... I laughed so hard that i couldn't breathe because i've never heard my Bro scream that loud...

WE even did a stunt where when i slid down to the pool, my cousin Lobo jumps pass me like you know the olimpic jumping thing where you use a pole while my other cousin LP recorded it on video. It looked totally cool yo! jan nda galat! hahaha, even though i was at risk of being body slam should my cousin fail to jump pass me! hahaha! anyways i played till 4am cause i was very tired plus i climbed up the slide most of the time because of the olympic jumping thing, you know how many times did they try it??? gila wah!!! hahaha! i even got to do a backflip and also where at the top of the slide, i layed down sideways and my Bro pushes me down, it resulted in me rolling down many times! but when i landed at the bottom, my back was damn totalled, i couldn't blink for 10 minutes!!! hahaha! it really hut my back though, hahaha! anyways that all that i wanna tell, hahah, the most importan thing is that i had fun! =) Ciao!

~Because he's hot?~

Hostile Home Environment

2009-04-11T23:07:00.004+08:00

Im in my room, hiding from the madness that is family gatherings... Today were celebrating my nephew's birthday in a huge way! there's fireworks, catering, bouncer slide and other over-the-top things~ Esh, My sis biasa! everything must be extravagant blah blah blah~ each time there's a family function, she becomes a very annoying and maddening Ultima Bitch cause she's the control freak in the family, macam ia punya responsibility sja si taie ah! Even during her wedding, she was the Mega Bitch of them all! diri yg kawin diri yg spatut yg chillax, ani ia tya plg over2 mcm org gila baie! Anyways, im hiding because my familia is all about stereotypes, the guys either talk about football, cars, fishing and weight-lifting, all of which im not interested in which is why im hiding in my room soo i wont drown with all the testosterone flooding the house, plus all the guys are watching football now, so its best to avoid that. The girls are all grouped, watching AF, also not a thing im interested in, plus their talking about "stuff" i shouldn't hear cause it might make my ears bleed. You see, not even a unique personality i this damn house which is why my presence here is very awkward, i wish i could sneak out of here and go somewhere else!

Now i wish i had a cigarette, seriously, theres constant pressure here to portray myself as a normal guy, you know, talk about sports, fishing, cars and girls... Hello!!! boooring much, i mean like seriously! i know im the black sheep of the family, im probably the only one who can think outside the box and im also probably the only one whose open-minded here. Probably why im not that close to my relatives, im close to my family though, but that's just an act, what i am in front of them is not what i am entirely. Seriously cant wait to get a driver's license or a place of my own, mind you, just because i wanna have a place of my own doesn't mean that im tryin to abandon my family. Its just the only way so that i could live my life as myself, as my own person, i wouldn't have to hide my true self. Sometimes i feel that im more of myself in school rather than at home.

Anyways, today at school, i just got my results on my latest Maths Test and i got a 2 out of 50!!! praise the lord! hahaha! im damn proud cause that test was a Mega Bitch and i aint gonna care what i got or what im gonna get cause im a slightly carefree person at school. At home, im as carefree as a kitten chained to a bottom of a lake. Oh yeah, later today, during the aftanoon, we went to the BC and i met up with Freak and he brought Yunni!!! Damn i kinda miss that girl, who am i kidding! i miss bitching with her about someone else, hahaha! like i used to say to Yunn "Girl, you my bitch!", that means, "Girl, you my dawg!". I used to say that to Yunn cause well we can be Mega Bitches Yo!!! and we like to Bitch owkay! hahaha! Nadadeh, mna kmi bitching, kmi ngumpat sja, hahaha! Anyways, had a meaningful conversation with Yunn today, hope what i said can help her in anyway and Good Luck Yunn!!! Girl, You my Bitch! cause we is Mega Bictches gurl, you go on with yo life and stay gorgeous honeychild!

PS: im so jealous cause Yunn's gettin thinner!!! Waaaa!! i wanna be thin too!!!

~Saja Wah!~

Dollhouse

2009-04-10T11:52:00.004+08:00

Eliza Dushku plays a young woman called Echo, a member of a group of people known as "Actives" or "Dolls". The Dolls are people whose personalities and existence in the outside world have been wiped clean so they can be imprinted with any number of new personas, including memory, muscle memory, skills, and language, for different assignments (referred to as engagements). The new persona is an amalgam of several real people, and the end result necessarily incorporates both strengths and flaws from the template personalities. The Actives are then hired out for particular jobs – crimes, fantasies, and the occasional good deed. On engagements, Actives are monitored internally (and remotely) by Handlers. In between engagements they are mind-wiped into a child-like state and live in a futuristic dormitory/laboratory, a hidden facility nicknamed "The Dollhouse". The Dollhouse is located somewhere in Los Angeles and is a subsidiary of a mysterious research group known as the Rossum Corporation.

The story follows Echo, who begins, in her mind-wiped state, to become self-aware.

The show also focuses on the employees of the mysterious "Dollhouse" and two other "Dolls", Sierra and Victor (played by Dichen Lachman and Enver Gjokaj), who are friendly with Echo. The names of Actives are simply letters in the phonetic alphabet. Although the Actives are ostensibly volunteers who work for a period of five years, the operation is highly illegal and under constant threat on one end from Paul Ballard (Tahmoh Penikett), a determined federal agent who has heard a rumor about the Dolls, and an insane rogue Active, "Alpha", on the other.

The Dollhouse cast. L to R: Agent Ballard, Victor, Echo, Sierra, Topher Brink, Adelle DeWitt, Boyd Langton

What an Ultima Bitch

2009-04-08T22:43:00.002+08:00

So today was like the day from hell!!! more or less cause i was supposed to have 3 tests today but due my Lit teacher gone MIA during my Lit class, the 3 tests became 2 soo the tests i had today were Maths and EAS... The Maths today was a total Mega Bitch, we had like 6 questions overall with each main question there were also sub-questions so there were like more or less 11 Qs... Guess what i did, i was finished with Qs 1A and 1B then tried a few Qs but to no avail, when i realised there was 10 minutes left i decided to look at my progress and apparently, the only Qs i answered were 1A and 1B for the whole hour!!! So, i ended up laughing at myself during the test cause it was pretty silly, and i only had 1 page for my answer sheet soo that looked totally fuckin Bad~ After that was Lit class where i probably did nothing and after that was the EAS test but i need not worry about EAS cause i think i have a slight chance of passing~

After all of the tests were over, it was already lunch time and i was totally losing it during lunch and when i meant losing it, i was releasing every bit of stress that flooded my body in which case made me laugh maniacly for a very long long long time... On another separate note, due to an on-the-spot decision, this afternoon i watched a movie called "Knowing" with AA, BB, Nys, Ya2, Hong, Sipul and a new acquaintance, Marr~ That totally cooled me down totally soo thats all and Ciao!

Updates

2009-04-02T21:53:00.006+08:00

Its April! So Happy Belated April Fool!!! and Happy Belated birthday to my good friend Eyan~ i know its already very2 late but i already greeted during her birthday sooo nothing wrong there! haha!

~Eyan~

In other unimportant news, im officially both clinically and physically stressed~ wait, what the hell am i saying! actually im a 100% stressed! its April and my AS exams are mostly in May so screw you fate! for giving me (and most probably a lot of people) terrible misgivings and terrible luck! Well, thats true blue life for ya, its generally impossible for destiny or fate or whatever people call it to not screw with people's lives... it cant be helped, all we miniscule beings living on this earth just has to take it like a bitch like we're destiny/fate's personal whore~ wow! very colourful language there but dont mind me im just finding an excuse to blame something other than myself for not having confidence in my mind and spirit to face the fuckin exam head on!

Another unimportant news~ i have entered each and every one of my classes for 3 days straight! daym! i do declayer thayt im proud of lil ol me! aint thayt ineresteyng! haha! but please honeychild they aint no reyson to applaude cuz ma mind goes all nothin like when im in mayth soo its kinda lyk ma bady is theyre but ma mind is sumwheyre eylse! Okay, to shit with what im posting right now cause my mind is all jumbled up, to make sense of the previous sentence, try reading it with a southern american accent~ hehe! what the hell!!! what the hell!! what the hell!!

nothing makes sense right??? well to hell with it cause im just venting my ass off, hahaha~

~Because i want to?~

First Day/Dead in Dallas/Club Dead

2009-03-30T22:07:00.003+08:00

Its the first day of school and i entered all of my classes yo!!! Hahaha, take a load of that! despite the fact that i was goin crazy because the devil on my shoulder kept poking me with its damn pitchfork so i wouldn't enter my classes, screw you, you damn mini-satan of my imagination! anyways i barely survived today, well thats probably an exaggeration of my own accord but seriously i had to summon everything of my will so that i wouldn't try to slip out of the classes that i was in! and due to me finishing the first season of TrueBlood, i decided to buy the books by Charlaine Harris the novel that TrueBlood was based on and also no regrets yo!! but i only bought the second and third book of the series sine i basically got the idea of the first book's plot from watching TrueBlood so i didn't need to buy that~ well, thats all i wanna say and ps, the sumbiling pics are coming soon~

Heaven is a place on earth

2009-03-29T13:14:00.004+08:00

Guess what??? im in seventh heaven right now!!! and thats because my room has a new air conditioner!!! oh yeah!!! my room aint ever gonna be hot like a hell on sunday!!! mwahaha, it gonna be cold like a woman scorned!!! Nyahaha, and i've already finished watching the first season of TrueBlood, and dude no regrets, its kond of funny, romantic and also campy, i especially love their dialogues!!! the dialogues that i find the most hillarious are;

Tara="im gonna get my baby daddy who just got out of prison to kick your teeth in"
Tara's Boss="jesus tara please dont do anythin..."
Tara="oh my god! im not serious you pathetic racist! i dont have a baby! damn! i know ya'll have to be stupid but do you have to be that stupid??? shit! fuck this job!"

Lafayette="They aint scared of you honeychild, they scared of whats between your legs"
Sookie="Lafayette! thats nasty talk i wont listen to that"
*Arlene enters the scene*
Arlene="Do you even know whats between a woman's leg lafayette?"
Lafayette="I know every man whether straight, gay or george motherfuckin bush is TERRIFIED of the PUSSY"

Sookie="Lafayette!"

This is my new air con, i named it SnowWhite

heart-wrenching poem =(

2009-03-28T22:24:00.003+08:00

"This was written by a young girl who was in jail for drug charges and was addicted to crystal meth. She wrote this while in jail. As you will soon read, she fully grasped the horrors of the drug, as she tells in this simple, yet profound poem. She was released from jail, but true to her story, the drug owned her. Please keep praying for our children, teens, young adults. Understand, this thing is worse than any of us realize...

My Name: "Is TICK"

I destroy homes, I tear families apart,
take your children, and that's just the start.
I'm more costly than diamonds, more precious than gold,
The sorrow I bring is a sight to behold.

If you need me, remember! I'm easily found,
I live all around you - in schools and in town.
I live with the rich; I live with the poor,
I live down the street, and maybe next door.

I'm made in a lab, but not like you think,
I can be made under the kitchen sink.
In your child's closet, and even in the woods,
If this scares you to death, well it certainly should.

I have many names, but there's one you know best,
I'm sure you've heard of me, my name is crystal meth.
My power is awesome; try me you'll see,
But if you do, you may never break free.

Just try me once and I might let you go,
But try me twice, and I'll own your soul.
When I possess you, you'll steal and you'll lie,
You do what you have to -- just to get high.

The crimes you'll commit for my narcotic charms
Will be worth the pleasure you'll feel in your arms, (your lungs, and your nose).
You'll lie to your mother; you'll steal from your dad,
When you see their tears, you should feel sad.

But you'll forget your morals and how you were raised,
I'll be your conscience, I'll teach you my ways.
I take kids from parents, and parents from kids,
I turn people from God, and separate friends.

I'll take everything from you, your looks and your pride,
I'll be with you always -- right by your side.
You'll give up everything - your family, your home,
Your friends, your money, then you'll be alone.

I'll take and take, till you have nothing more to give,
When I'm finished with you, you'll be lucky to live.
If you try me be warned - this is no game,
If given the chance, I'll drive you insane.

I'll ravish your body, I'll control your mind,
I'll own you completely, your soul will be mine.
The nightmares I'll give you while lying in bed,
The voices you'll hear, from inside your head.

The sweats, the shakes, the visions you'll see,
I want you to know, these are all gifts from me.
But then it's too late, and you'll know in your heart,
That you are mine, and we shall not part.

You'll regret that you tried me, they always do,
But you came to me, not I to you.
You knew this would happen, many times you were told,
But you challenged my power, and chose to be bold.

You could have said no, and just walked away,
If you could live that day over, now what would you say?
I'll be your master, you will be my slave,
I'll even go with you, when you go to your grave.

Now that you have met me, what will you do?
Will you try me or not? It's all up to you.
I can bring you more misery than words can tell,
Come take my hand, let me lead you to hell.

If you care enough, please forward this profound poem and share the deadly outcome of this drug that is killing our young people & even our old."
~from wanna and dhil's blog~

this poem is actually beautiful~ i loved it! i know it transmits the evil that is crystal meth but the words chosen were very beautiful! it truly reach through my heart~ bravo and lovely, her message shall be passed on~

The trip to Sumbiling

2009-03-28T00:01:00.002+08:00

26th March 2009, the trip to sumbiling... Well, to summarise it into words, it was adventurous, fun, exciting and very tiring, also add a little bit of pain to that~ At first i didn't get to register myself to join this trip because i wasn't sure that my parents would allow me to join this potentially adventurous trip but after mentioning about it to them, they gave me the greenlight. However i missed the deadline for the payment of the trip but luckily, i was talking to Jeedah about really wanting to join the trip and found out that she was in charge with handling some stuff regarding with the trip, she convinced me to join and told me that i could just give her the money and that was it, i was officially going on the trip so i was totally ecstatic and very well stoked... After mentioning this to Meera, she tagged along, and also joined the trip. (should've kept my mouth shut... kidding!)

Anyways, yesterday was the day... and i was so psyched that i did not sleep at all the night before yesterday and damn that was a stupid thing to do~ anyways, we went for Bangar, Temburong yesterday at 8am via boat which took an estimated time of 45 minutes and went from Bangar to Sumbiling via a very cool and extravagant tour bus which took an estimated 30 minutes. Our drop off was not exactly at Sumbiling, we had to walk for an estimated 20 minutes from the drop off to Sumbiling and once we've reached the actual Sumbiling Eco Village we rested there where some of us had a snack and a drink while others changed clothes and that included me cause i wore something more casual for the trip so i decided to change into a T-shirt and shorts cause i got a hunch that we were gonna get down and dirty and god dammit i was right...

Our actual trip or journey or adventure, whatever you wanna call it with crossing a river which was not at all deep, probably knee-high give or take in a very small boat. When we reached across we had to hike a very very very very very long trail in a forest, the hike almost killed me, with the catching-up with the guide, the burning hot sun and the very unstable trail i swear to lucifer that i burned a couple of pounds. We walked and walked and walked till we reached a river, and here where all the fun, adventure and pain starts...

once we reached the river, we totally let loose and just fooled around in it and the guides even brought us tubes where me along with others floated around in, it was very refreshing cause the river was well shaded, no sunlight in sight and it was very cold which totally felt good after spending time sweating and enduring the blistering hot sun. after cooling ourselves off, we were give an activity and damn it was bloody difficult, this is where the pain comes in...

We were given the task of building ourselves a raft with 2 tubes, some bamboo and rope that could carry 3 of our team members, 1 team had 10 members. i carried the bamboo while others helped meera tie the bamboo, when were done with our raft, we had to race with the other 3 teams along the river. the 3 that were on the raft needed to row the raft forward along the river while the other members help to accelerate the speed of the boat, easier said than done cause that river was a motherfucking bitch. the river bed was totally inconsistent, it was shallow, deep, shallow, very deep and shallow again. We really had to push really hard when it was shallow which caused me to trip and hit my knee on the rocks on the river bed. When it was deep, the ones who couldn't swim had to hold on to the raft and just go with the flow, this cause my legs to get scraped by the big ass mother fuckin wood on the river bed.

It was very difficult task, on many times i drifted away from my team when the river was really deep. It was also pretty scary especially when 1 of our own who was during that time on the raft and the river was fairly shallow fell overboard, when she fell she slammed her arm on the whatever thing that was on the river bed and due to the shock passed out for a while and thank god it was for a while cause i kinda got worried there for a minute. When she came to i breath of relief came out f me and she was escorted to a boat that brought her back directly to the Sumbiling Eco Village while the ones that were left continued with the so-called race. The river was very long so it took an ample amount of time to finally reach the finish point and along the way i hit plenty of deadwood and rocks that brought bruises to my legs.

The finish point of the raft race was actually a river bank near the finish point of our hike so we had to hike back along the previous trail all tired and soaking wet, we made the trail muddy and i fell plenty of times with mudd all over, seriously not a pleasant feeling plus i lost most of my energy at the river which made the hike almost unbearable but with a lot of slipping and sliding and also effort we reacher the river that we first crossed to get back to the village but this time we crossed it by foot cause it was shallow plus we wanted to clean ourselves off along the way. Before reaching the village we played around at the river as a las thing to do before we get ready to depart. Once we reached the village, everyone was super tired and there was food that was fixed for us, some ate first then showered, others did vice versa, i did the former because it was a pretty long wait before i was able to use the showers. Once everyone was full, clean and recharged we started our journey back to the drop off... then used the bus... then the boat...

The trip was awesome and i couldn't imagine anything better, what still sticks in my head was everyone's laughs and smiles during the whole trip. we joked around and helped each other a lot. what started as a trip with strangers that i've seen before but never known ended as a an exciting bonding trip with friends, i didn't expect to meet with such extraordinary characters on that day and i was very lucky that i did and get to share that experience with them... and fyi our trip ended when we reached BSB at 5 pm...

I think its best for me to upload the pics later cause i need to get the rest of the pics from a friend, only then will it be complete~ until then, Ciao~

Yanz Birthday~

2009-03-24T23:23:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO SII NURHAYANTI A.K.A YANZ JR A.K.A YANZ LBTB~ HAHAHA~ SORRY EH LMBAT AH, APA JWA GANYA SEHARI~ SMOGA PNJANG UMUR BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA~ ANYWAYS~ SII YANZ MAKIN TUA, WAWAWAWA~

The Beach

2009-03-24T23:13:00.002+08:00

These pics were taken during the second last day of school where a fraction of us GBL/GBC5 went to the berakas beach, it was so kewl yo!!! i know these pics should've been uploaded ages ago but my internet connection back then was totally dissin me so i wasn't able to upload any pics, anyways during the beach day, it was actually my first tyme going to berakas beach and lemme tell you the place is beautiful but the beach is so god damn exposed to the sun so beware of sunburn, hahhaha~ had so much fun there singing, joking around and what not~ hahaha~ just wanted to post the pics...

Same story all over again

2009-03-20T21:32:00.003+08:00

Hey guys, as you know, its the start of the school holidays soo hooray... anyways i havent been feeling well cause frankly i feel betrayed and untrusted by my parents, yet they still have the nerve to act as though as nothing has happened~ i hate school holidays cause you dont get to meet your friends much and there is no one to comfort you when your feelin down~ thats what im feeling right now, down... i dunno why but its the same old story again, everytime im at home, i get depressed, sad and somehow maniacly emotional, which are traits of mine that i do not care to express cause these feelings bring out the ugly side of me, instead of my usual care-free and optimistic self, what comes out is a pessimistic and gloomy stranger... i know that its normal that everyone has 2 sides, but i prefer to prevent my unappealing side from surfacing cause... others may be affected by it, unintentionally though, but not Zid or shall i say Donut (he wants me to start calling him Donut) cause he understands me, so much that he lets everything slide when my dark side takes over~ even if some of my words may wound him deeply, he still lets it slide, for that im very thankful to have Donut as a friend, better yet as my bestfriend~

Speaking of Bestfriends, i've got great news regarding Freaky... Well, its really great news and im so very happy for him! Very2 much! Well, Freaky's in a relationship and he's bagged himself a total hottie! (that lucky bastard) seriously i envy him soo much cause the way he describes how they interact with each other is soo heart gushingly cute! It seems Freaky is soo much in love that i hope their relationship blossoms and i give them my blessings~ He's so lucky to have found love, cant say the same for me~ sometimes i wonder everyday... I always fall for people yet no-one ever falls for me~ yes, its a very bitter thing to think about, anyways congrats Freaky you lucky bastard =)

Haha, it is somehow refreshing to know that something good is happening to the people you care about, For instance Freaky's in a relationship, Donut seems to be progressing in they ways of love himself (though he needs to practice on detecting hints), Nysa and Yaya's relationship is very overwhelming, so full of love and commitment on both sides, Ash is at KL right now enjoying a vacation with his family, Bibi on the other hand is probably acting like a love sick puppy right now missing Ash and Naqib's off to his motherland for the school Holidays~ So many good things happening, yes, it really does feel refreshing~ *breathes in* *picturing things in mind* *breathes out* i think i feel a lil bit better, heheh~

Oh and i almost forgot, soon i'll be uploading pics from our trip to Berakas Beach which was awesome and very much the bomb, it felt very nice how me along with my friends got together having a great time, enjoying the ocean breeze and each other's company, not to mention having a very fun time singing-along with each other with our own lyrics to boot~ Hehehe~ all in all it was a great event, truly a GBL tradition even if the gang was incomplete, i enjoyed it very much~ Thank you friends and Happy Holidays

Upd8

2009-03-17T23:16:00.003+08:00

There is barely anything happening in my life thats worth to blog about but you know that little road bump i had with the PTEK SA... Well all of it has been sorted out and im thanking god that i dodged that freakin bullet BUT the pk said that since this was my first offense, he's gave me a first warning which is also the last warning saying that i'll risk suspension if i have another discipline case which is bloody bullshit cause baru jwa skali and then bgi last warning tya! fucking newbie jwa eh skulahnya ani eh! spatutnya 3 kali plg warning barutah punishment, ani kn mati kali paluinya! ugh, PTEK is getting more fucked up than ever all because of that bloody fucked up superman and that fuckin butt ugly wonder woman... breathe in... breathe out... breathe in... breathe out... Patience is a virtue... Anyways, ive been very bored at home so mcm banyak banyakkn DVD yg ku bli and right below is the list of the DVD's i've watched while i was bored... PS: EAS klasku be aircon nyanta! Mwahahahaha! Akhirnya! Mwahahaha!

1. Dexter season 3

2. Avatar: the last airbender season 3

3. Rental Magica

4. Angel's Feather

5. Shuffle season 2 (Memories)

Bad Luck

2009-03-14T23:15:00.002+08:00

Today is not my fucking day! because first of all i think im in a state of shock cause the May/June AS exams are getting nearer and im not ready at all!!! So thats why my mood at school have seen better days, on top of my exam shock moodiness, i along with Nysa, Ash and BB were sent to the SA all because we went out of school for a little while during our PS and on Monday we have to see the teacher about this predicament and the way he talked to us was kind of like an executioner, he said that on monday he'll decide on what punishment to give to us whether we'll have to face the principal or our guardians are gonna get called, gila!!!! kluar tym PS tanpa kebenaran TAPI hukuman nya macam kedapatan besigup wh!!! WTF!!! and because of this little thing, my stress level is way up!!! Ugh~~~~ Fuckin PTEK, first offense kaliah... for this year plg tuu, mudahan th personal file from MD nda kna bwa2, atu krg, lau kna bwa... tabal plg file kmi.... ugh, whatever, i'll just deal with this on monday, its probably ludicrous to punish us irrationally sadangkn apa jwa ganya kesalahan tani atu...

I really hope to dodge this little road bump, honestly, jilama lai kluar skulah tanpa kebenaran, nda jwa kna tagur, tkana tya jwa cgu yg brabisly takes her job seriously which is very kesian yet pathetic... mcm nada kraja lain tah!!! Wow!!! its not even mid-year and were already famous, nda plg, tym kna bwa ke SA bnyak plg org mliat, pukima bnar eh! palir! pucung! klantit! burit! chicken shit! ass kisser! wooooooo~~~~~~ im venting right now so... Granny fucking slut of an asshole son of a bitch ass licking shit eating finger fucking whore!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SORRY FOR MY COLOURFUL VOCABULARY

No Sleep Tonight

2009-03-12T01:13:00.002+08:00

I havent been sleeping well yo! within these 2 days i've developed a sleeping problem, im sleeping only 2 hours a day, gila wah tu yo!!! Kalat mata plg, this is due to the responsibilities of being an Upper Six which is very2 tiring like hell... Even now as im creating this post, my eyes are drowsy but i cant sleep because i need to study for a test tomorrow, i havent slept that much for the past 2 days because of the stacking Maths assignments and Sociology homework... I was gonna bring up the topic of the "produce" i've seen at school but im totally hammered right now, damn maths assignments, speaking of which, my math teacher has been changed, the new teacher is like the polar opposite of my previous maths teacher which is actually good but im not sure on the way he teaches because i like si Rugah's style of teaching better than this newone but i loathe her personality, within time, i'll eventually figure him out... Now i think i'll sleep tonight rather than studying so goodnight~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

No Rest For The Wicked

2009-03-08T19:44:00.002+08:00

Okay so my Blog has been soooooo Dead~~~~~~~ Well thats because there has been a lack of inspiration in my life especially in PTEK... Like Hellooooo PTEK plg, theres no reason to stare in wonder and amazement basically because theres nothing there, just a patch of modern architecture stranded in the middle of a desert plain... No nature, no beauty resulting to lack of muse and zero inspiration... My life has been a total blur really but at the same time hectic due to the presence of the "Stales", mainly, Ash, Bibi, Saiful and Kamai at PTEK so the days now are slightly less bitter but much more sweet... Hahahaha, So i've already received my statement of entry for the June AS and i can feel the pressure sinking into my gut, i really am nervous mainly because of Maths and Socio, ELT and EAS i may be able to handle... i really need to focus on my studies but im actually having a hard time not skipping my ELT and EAS class, apparently im (according to the teacher) the student who always skips class, always late for class and always sleeps in class, wow! soo many labels and its not even the middle of the year yet!!! Woooh~~~~

But mind you, i actually love the ELT and EAS teacher which is the same teacher actually, he's actually lovable and very funny but im really losing interest in my English subjects because my imagination hasn't been properly exploited sooo my imagination really needs some exercise~~~~ i wanna write fictional stories!!!! but since this is the last year, hopefully, so there is no rest, all work, work, work, work and work and definitely no room for play... All work and no play is such a sucky way of living life but hey, you gotta do what you gotta do, sacrifices must be made in this case, im sacrificing the fun part of my life, eventhough its not true cause im still hanging out and doing stuff with my friends, hahahah!!! sacrifices must be made but i wont sacrifice anything cause with work there must be play and with play there must be work, its all in finding the complete balance between the 2 soooo i'll work hard and party even harder!!!! oh yeah!!!! but to simply put into a phrase of the work given this year;

NO REST FOR THE WICKED

Latest Update

2009-03-07T21:09:00.005+08:00

THE CURRENT BOOK IM READING

LAST MOVIE I WATCHED (WITH MY MOM)

Upd8

2009-03-06T08:28:00.002+08:00

Been 5 days since i've blogged... Well, this is partly because that PTEK is a school load of shit and boredom and apparently, alos has loads of Freshies!!! i think about 700+ compared to MD's 400+ frshies, our freshies are crowding all over the place!!! Seniors now through my own vision are fading into the background as the Freshies take on the spotlight... Anyways i really loathe PTEK now for taking on more Freshies that i think are more for them to handle, im not hating the BE's im just frustrated over the lack of places to chill since the GS was off limits! plus its kinda weird seeing all the colourful uniforms that make up the freshies because apparantly PTEK have not thought up their own uniform, and the Stales said that there is an insufficient amount of teachers therefore giving the BE's 6 blocks instead of 5, whoa! now i know im sure that PTEK is way in over its head... Everywhere crowded, the focal point of the BE's are the canteen, the hole and basically the drop-off area... Ughhh~~~~ STREEEESSSSSSS!!!! GILEERRRRRR!!! Well, thats all, and MD, apparently is very sunyi even with the BE addition, ada hasil khaliah but apparently the hasil has been targeted~~~ Too Bad, So Sad...

First of March...

2009-03-01T11:36:00.003+08:00

Today is the first day of March, i know there's no significance or anything about today but just felt the need to blog... this week has been very hectic for me cause i spent most of my week with my friends whom i cherish and hold dear to my heart... Wow, that sounds so cheesy... hahah, but really, you can have a million friends but true friends are one in a million... Woooh, im on fire with this cheesiness! Anyways So yesterday there was supposed to be the first meeting for The Book/Film Club now dubbed "The Review" for reason unknown to me cause i didn't attend the first meeting yesterday cause went to hang with the friends whom i love, Hong, Freak, YaYa and Nysa, its been a while since we just sat down and talked, i mean really talked like we used to last year...

Anyways, this march is gonna be the first of quite a few things, Its gonna be the first month for the Freshie BE's, Its gonna be my First month of entering all my classes (hopefully) and also the first month where ECA's get active (hopefully)... Hahaha... and oh i almost forgot, this month will be the month where the first school holiday will be commenced, Oh Yeah!!! hahaha!!! I guess thats all i wanted to say and FYI (For Your Information),
This year i've joined 2 ECA's which are;

1. Creative Writing Club

2. Book/Film Club (The Review)

Catching Up

2009-02-27T09:20:00.030+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates yo, i've been very busy this week, evnthough i've been skipping classes like CRAZY! on tuesday i didn't enter any of my classes, on wednesday i entered Socio only and yesterday i entered Maths only... Gila wah tuu yo! but i'll try to force myself into entering classes next week... Anyways during the National Day which is last Monday, at the Polo Club, Brunei made a record or something by "menyalai"-ing 74,000 satays! Jan nda galat dang banyaknya! So Me, Nysa, Yaya, Ash and BB went there on Monday and it was actually very fun! Eventhough Jan nda galat labat ujannya but it was fun, we took a lot of pics especially at the beach and with the horses, mendangar org bemukun lgi tuu dang! hahaha! Sama mliat org main guling tangan lgi tuu sambil betaduh dri ujan ah, kan mati labatnya ah! basah brabis th, nasib jwa kmi mengaring kn pakai wap dri penyalaian satay ah, hahaha! karing taruus ehh! hahaha! and guess what???

Siuk2 kmi lepak ah, membagi makan kuda and duduk di pantai, kmi ketinggalan bas wh yo! (no one was allowed to park in the Polo Club so we parked at the restaurants in JP and rode a bus to the Polo Club) Gila! Mana ngalih bejalan ah!!!! kan mati jauhnya ah!!! tlampau stress brabis msa bjalan ah, menyanyi lagu "I will survive" th! it took us probably about half an hour to reach our car, because we rested for about 5 to 10 minutes because of the rain... Anyways the point is the trip was MERIAH, haahahha!!!
Below are the pics of Monday's Satay thing

OMG!!! Padi dang eh!!! Jan nda galat!!! Sakai khaliah~

2009-02-22T22:28:00.012+08:00

So today i had a road trip with my parents to Tutong to go back to my roots~ which meant visiting my Grangran in Kampung Bukit, Tutong. Apparently today was harvesting season so i was staring in wonder as my relatives were "mengatam"-ing and "mengirik"-ing the padi from my Grandma's padi field, actually this is the first tym i've realised that my Grandma actually had a padi field... We arrived there at about 3-ish and stayed there till 8-ish... gila batah khaliah, and i even got to catch up with my cousins whom i've lost contact with for a long time...

i even spent the afternoon with my cousins at the "junjungan" and i was like sakai, hahaha, this is why my Grandma calls me "Cucu dri Bandar". Hahaha, but seriously i didn't expect my Grandma to have such a large padi field, nda plg basar but considering she's the only one yg menanam padi tuu, its pretty big. Thank god, relatives came to help the harvesting, hahaha, and i admit this was my first tym actually seeing padi up-close,hahaha! Kasian eh org bandar ni eh!!! Usually i loathe visiting the 'Ulu' cause im not that close to my cousins from that side but today i actually had a great tym with my cousins especially my cousin Hafiz, whom apparently has similar interests with me~~~~~ who would've thought ey, i even took pictures from this afternoon...

the Padi harvested

The padi field (you cant actually see the padi through this pic)

the Padi approaching the "mengirik"-ing process

My cousin Hafiz, "mengirik"-ing the Padi

this process i dunno the name =)

still the same process

Hafiz @ the "junjungan"

Me @ the "junjungan"

The Padi field seen from the "junjungan"

Friday Futsal:Belated post

2009-02-22T22:11:00.002+08:00

This happened during the Futsal thingy on friday, sorry for the late post, pikir dikit yg main ni, banyak palah! gila khaliah~ hahahaha~ Zid said that it was supposed to start at 4 udah atu kn kul 6 th start nya ah! i didn't play of course, like hello! suka ku tuu main sport ah so duduk th kuu milat dorang main bula sma berhala yg 3 orang ah, hahahaha! then, wooooh~ ujan lgi tuu! gila wh, cukup dgn guruh sma kilat yg D Moz, hahaha, but it was fun to see them play, hasil2 ah yg main ah!! ahahahaha~ anyways after the futsal thing, some of us hanged out a lil more and we hanged out at Mamih kiulap, all in all the friday futsal thing was great! hahaha, just another reason so we could get together... the GBL...

A Bad-Day to be Quirky Series Fan =(

2009-02-21T21:12:00.007+08:00

Okay so i totally bored today eventhough the afternoon spending time with Freaky and Zid was a blast! Totally2 awesome! Gawd how i miss spending tym with those 2 Nutjobs, but their my Nutjobs so no touchie-touchie or plodding-plodding... hahaha! anyways, i was bored so i tried to Wiki "The Middleman" one of the Best Series i've ever known! but most of all it funny, cute and quirky! but then when i read The Middleman's Wiki profile, i found out that The Middleman wont be having a continuation!!!!!! Just like my other favourite shows, Wonderfall and Pushing Daisies which is pretty depressing for me cause these are the type of Series that makes happy! Its the only thing that turns me from my Dark and Cloudy self to a Bright and Bubbly version of me when im at home! Gawd! Aint the world ready yet for these type of shows?!?! My Spirit is again crushed, anyways for those who are fans of Quirky Comedies, let us mourn in the death of these Quirky Comedies, may they resurrect sometime in the future~

Heroes

2009-02-20T14:16:00.006+08:00

So i've bought the latest heroes from chong hock and in this latest DVD, volume 3 of heroes is done! and a new volume is introduced, eventhough its only been the mid-season 3, Heroes season 3 volume 4:Fugitives, this latest volume is doing very well from the 3 episodes that i've watched, much better than the third volume which is Villains but since i've only seen 3 of the fourth volume's episode we wont know actually if this volume was better but im loving it so far~~~~~~ below is the cast of heroes that are in Volume 3:Villains and all of these except for Maya appear in Volume 4:Fugitives

Cool right the render ah~ Rugged khaliah~ and dont you think Maya and Sylar are hot??? Woooh~~~~~ Hot daym! i've gone smitten over them but sadly Maya's story and plot in Heroes really sucked~~~ im gonna miss her and below is another rugged render =)

Even cooler kn??? hahaha Rugged brabis dang jan nda galat!!!!! so all in all i hope this new volum would make up for the crap that is the previous volume~ "Inside every hero there is a villain", apaakaaaan???? hahahah~ im out yo!

Personality Test

2009-02-18T17:32:00.003+08:00

I recently took a personality test about and these are my top personality traits, Reserved, Optimistic and Tentative being my dominant personality traits... I think im confident to say that all of these are sort of true but depends on how people see me though~

Reserved
You’re equally happy in your own company as you are in the company of true friends. Rather than raucous nights on the town, you enjoy pursuing hobbies and like nothing more than sharing interests and intimate conversation with the special people in your life. You avoid large groups and gatherings where you’d be expected to be the centre of attention but you enjoy occasional parties – especially when you know every face in the room. You don’t find it easy to approach a stranger but will come across as polite if introduced by a friend.

Optimistic
On the whole you have a sunny outlook on life. If set-backs happen you may spend a moment licking your wounds but will quickly dust yourself down and get on track. Others find your attitude quite inspirational and you may find friends seek your advice. You take a balanced view on most things and will always err on the side of hope and positivity rather than brood on the negative. You’re open to new opportunities and will actively seek solutions to problems and explore new avenues rather than let life pass you by.

Tentative
You won’t be walked over by anyone but you won’t cause any scenes either. You may come across as indecisive but that could be because you prefer others to take control. You are fairly easy-going and your laid-back approach may present as lazy or uncaring. Being put on the spot makes you feel uncomfortable so if you need to make a decision you like to take your time and weigh things up. Even then, you may want to leave your suggestions open to debate – a trait others may see as fair-minded, team-spirited and inclusive.

Spontaneous
Although on the surface you seem to ride life as though it’s the crest of a wave – you have called the coast guard for information about tides beforehand! You are excited by new challenges and are happy to ‘go with the flow’ and try new experiences. You’ll be up for a spontaneous after-work drink with friends but not if it means you miss the last bus home. You’re independent and take balanced risks. You will be happy to date someone who is out of your comfort zone for the experience but when your instincts about a person or situation kick in, you’ll stop and listen. Although you’re ready for fun, you certainly wouldn’t call yourself reckless.

Innovative
You certainly can’t be accused of being stuck in your ways. You are flexible and able to embrace change. Although you abide by the laws of the land, behind the scenes you have your own ideas about how things should be done. You would consider yourself to be a moderate thinker and take a balanced and accommodating view of the world around you.

Sensitive
Because you’re a sensitive soul inside, you can sometimes present a seemingly impervious outer-shell to protect yourself from psychological slings and arrows. You may be tempted to ‘fire the first shot’ in order to deflect any criticism even before it happens. Being sensitive – especially to the feelings of others - is a very attractive quality and displaying your soft side may bring out feelings of protectiveness in others.

Trusting
Trusting others is high on your priorities and is one of the foundation stones on which you build a relationship. If it isn’t there, or someone betrays your trust, you find it quite hard to forget – even if you forgive. You are fair-minded and accepting and may readily believe a person’s reason for letting you down. Equally you will feel real feelings of guilt if you feel you have lost someone’s trust. You’ll share your thoughts and passions with others and will come across as open-minded.

Unassuming
You don’t seek the limelight and can be a little unnerved if you find yourself at the centre of attention. You are most comfortable in the company of people you know and thrive in familiar environments and situations. At times, your self-belief may falter and you may be tempted to rely on friends and loved ones for strength and confidence especially if you are unsure about a situation. If people close to you offer you reassurance and approval your confidence soars.

Sleeping Beauty

2009-02-17T02:24:00.003+08:00

Oh yes, i am the sleeping beauty or at least the sleeping cutie but after today i dont wanna be associated with the word cute cause i just found out today from Fadh that cute means "ADORABLE but UGLY" which is such an insult on so many frickin levels... Anywaaaays, in responce to the title, my sleeping routine has been slowly killing me, i mean, i come home, and do things till 6 or 7pm and then sleep in my parent's room because my room's A/C is on the fritz and my parent's A/C is like heaven, then wake up at 2 or 3am! i mean like what the hell! and because of that i kinda feel very tired at school which results in skipping classes, quite a shocker aint it? NOT! Anyways school is definitely booriing! first of all there's no Nysah (she's got chicken pox) so i've got no one to bitch with! second of all, assignments! assignments! assignments! assignments evrywhere!!! god help us! ughhhh~

On another unrelated thing, guess what? when i entered the dining hall there was this poster about Friendship Week, something about them providing gifts for us to give to our friends and i was like, wait for it... wait for it... WHAT IN THE HELL?????? and there's something about starting friendships or something, lemme quote from the poster, "Want to start o friendship but afraid and dont know how to?", Wooooo~ and i was like, Whoa so this is something for loners to join??? i mean seriously how lame of an activity is that, no offense to all of you who prefer to spend your life alone~ Speaking of friendship, i miss my friends in MD, Freak and Yazid, Adi? sadang? oh oh oh, and Ash and Bibi and Yan and Yun and Yaya =( Akim and Mimi??? hmmm??? not so much really~ at least im being honest, you know why? cause dorang atuu pengatil hantap!

Next week is when the freshies are gonna arrive and maybe along with the stale ones, aka Ash and Bibi, hahaha~ its gonna be interesting to see the new faces but whats not interesting to see is how PTEK is gonna be so crowded! Shitz!

Just to close off this post, i present to you a pic of James Franco and something about it that's yanking my chain~

Its up to you, how you interpret this picture =) ByeBye~

Just a random update

2009-02-15T18:31:00.006+08:00

I really dont know why that my posts have been very boring, even im baffled because usually i enjoy blogging but when i made those recent posts i felt so sluggish, experienced mental block and adapted a different demeanor... whoa! i guess the school work is getting to me~ what a terrifying thought, me succumbing to the tyranny that is school and education! hot daym! i am so ashamed! hahahaha~ well. not that ashamed though cause me giving in to school and homework is sort of good too in a way, hahaha~ at least i've finally realised the huge impact of the A-Levels! whoa! anyways, i've realised that i havent uploaded some pics from my camera sooo im gonna upload it now =)

These pics were from january which means that im 15 days late in posting it, i've got a perfect explanation for that... Well, during that day we took a lot of pics and some of the pics contained different things, like sex appeal and whore-ey poses but those are too over to be posted on the internet plus i really dont wanna permanently scar your brains soo i wont upload those pics... Oh yeah, my explanation well after havin fun on that day, i was kind of tired so when i reached home i flopped on my bed due to exhaustion and kind of thought that i left my camera in my bag so i left it there for 3 days, turns out when i decided to check the camera, it wasn't with me...

Imagine how panicked i felt!!! and thank god that it turns out that i left the camera in Freak's car, hahahah~ okay even though i was thankful i cant help realise how careless i am and well i really am careless! Iguess carelessness and clumsiness is in my DNA, hahaha~ I cant help it!!!! Waaaaaaaaa~

This pic is one of the greatest cause hey! it was windy when we took this picture so it was fun to take this picture over and over again cause the wind blew our clothes everywhere like crazy at one point when i was shielding my eyes from the wind and the picture was taken, i looked like i was peering at Freak's chest! palui usulnya kaliah!!! and then we got this little baby, mwahahah~ well actually there's a lot of pics during that day but i already upload all of them in the GBL blog and here i only chose to upload my faves! which is these 2~ hahahah~ eventhough i wasn't present in the first photo~~~~~~

FYI SCHOOL ASSIGNMENTS ARE A TOTAL BEEYOTCH...

The Pink Panther

2009-02-13T21:55:00.003+08:00

Today i watched The Pink Panther 2 with Zid along with his cousin Yuz at the Qlap Mall and i think this sequel does not dissapoint, it was really funny, i just laughed along the whole movie and i think the Qlap Mall's ciniplex is better than the Mall's but its just that the venue is pretty dead, nda laku khaliah Qlap Mall ah~ anyways after watchin the movie we went to S2dy Zone because Zid is registering for tuition there and after that we went straight to the mall where me and Zid talked and talked, catching up just like old times... I MISS HIM SO MUCH!!! hahah, anyways, i think people in general will enjoy watching The Pink Panther 2, you'll laugh so hard you'll see double =)

Flying...? or Falling...?

2009-02-11T20:33:00.003+08:00

Today we made a last minute plan to go to the BC, me and Nysah of course and i guess we were lucky cause Hong, Akim, Yazid and Freaky were there and went flying and soaring all afternoon and ended up with 2 bumps on the head that is frickin throbbing ryte now like hell, a mild headache, a sore body and totally thrashed brain... and im a lil bit scared about my unsteady flying this afternoon, i ended up falling rather than soaring, so i think i'll try to stay leveled on the earths ground for the time being but i think its gonne be difficult cause for a human being to feel the feeling of flight is unlike anything else... but like i said im gonna spend most of my time on mother earth and try to find that same feeling right here on the ground where its safe and here im levelled... on another note i donated some blood today and it felt good, but sadly i forgot to take pictures in that moment which is very sad, i donated my blood while accompanied by Mira, but she didint donate her blood, so i've donated charity, check! donated blood, check! now all thats left is to donate my organ, heehee... =)

Flying without wings

2009-02-10T23:14:00.004+08:00

So being an upper six is such a pain in the arse! i cant believe how much assignments im getting each week, its insane! assignments are piling up by the day and im gonna go crazy yo! and btw i got a big fat D in both Socio and Eng Lit test, for Socio its a totally huge progress made and im proud of hat but for Eng Lit... I could've done better but like i care and since when do i care... anyways my maths class has been a living hell and when i finally got my maths test result which i got a 43%, she said to me, "wail im suprised that you passed", after she called out my name. She can be such a frickin bitch and likes to rub it in your face which is very frustrating... now, enough of school, after school i went with Nysa to BC followed by Freaky and Yaya then Ash and Akim and lets just now i know that i can fly eventhough i did some things that scarred my brain and im so sorry for that... =)

New Layout

2009-02-09T21:52:00.001+08:00

Oh yeah! new layout yo! its oh so very mystical adn oh so very purple sooo i totally love it yaw!!!! weeeheeheee~ but it certainly took an unreasonable amount of time to find this but its okay and im not promising that this layout will remain~

Feel So Numb

2009-02-08T23:41:00.002+08:00

Today started slow because well, not that in the mood today and unfortunately had tuition this afternoon, and i carpooled with nysa today who picked me up late today and ended up going to tuition class an hour late! after that met up with ash, akim and yaya and lets just say some tension was relieved and everything felt so numb and relaxing and chill so all in all it wasnt a very bad day... heehee, just a short post =)
tomorrows happenings;
~have an ELT test
~a maths assignment to be handed in
~socio teacher to meet up with about the test
~maybe gonna get the continuation of lilith saintcrow's dante valentine series

THATS ALL =)

HAPP BUTTDAY YA

2009-02-07T22:03:00.001+08:00

MARI KITA SAMBUT BIRTHDAY SEORANG LGI GBL~~~~~~

SIIII YAYA ATAU BOLEH DI KENALI SBAGAI CHUK BANG! WAWAWA!

MACAM ANCHUK BANG PLG BUNYI NYA! HAHAHA! AWU AH SORRY YAYA, ANYWAYS

UMUR TU 2 DECADE DH EH! AND MUDAHAN PANJANG UMUR, LAU BULEH TH 10 DECADE, NAH DANG! JGN NDA GALAT, ON ANOTHER NOTE, SORRY ARAH SI ADI/ADIB/ADIBAH SAL MEMPLODDING KO SMPAI MENTAL~ HEHE~ CHERRY!

DARI SII BUULAT =)

Random Update

2009-02-05T22:23:00.002+08:00

Okay sooo its been a while since i've blogged, its probably because my assignments are stacking up and i've barely enough time to even read the new book that i bought, Dead Man Rising by Lilith Saintcrow... i know right, im now an avid reader of books, which is totally sending goosebumps up and down my spine, haha, but hey, it makes my writing better and widens my vocabulary knowledge, anyways... this is just a random update telling you im not the type of blogger that leaves his blog in the dust just because he's a little busy... oh yeah, i went to the UK exhibition yesterday with Yazid, Freaks and Nys and we were very clueless on what to do especially me because hearing all fluent english being spoken, i felt very intimidated cause as you know my oral communication in english is really lacking, seriously yo, and when i finally found the courage and just blurt out my questions, i ended up with an ultimatum. I went to 3 different universities and asked about the requirements to take an English Literature course and the requirements are getting AAA, AAB or ABB in my A-levels which is utterly impossible for me! fucking universities!
among other things that has happened to me;
~ i am now an official Study Zoner again and im apparently still the students of the twins
~i am in the same tuition school for sociology with Nysa and Yazid
~yesterday marked the first tym i didnt register in PTEK
~i've been sleeping early for the past few days
~the GBL met up at PTEK a few days ago (no comment about this one)
~i just found out that apparently, EAS is very useless the points are not included in the A-levels
~i've been thinkin about this someone for 2 days now
~im eating a lot now=) heheh! chubby cheeks! wawawaw!

Well, thats probably it and this is the books that i read during January;
*PS=i dont tremember all of the authors =) and im too lazy to check it out =)
Soulless by Christopher Golden
Revealers by *dont rememner* x_x
Working For The Devil by Lillith Saintcrow

Slip and Slide!

2009-01-29T21:46:00.002+08:00

Hi! So today was not one of my best days, definitely... first of all, i was in no mood to do any studying today, seriously my mood was a downer today i dunno why... anyways, today, my first class was socio and usually, ever since Ms.Soveyanna became our new Socio teacher, i actually paid full attention in every socio class but today, everything that came out of her mouth was like, "blah blah blah functionalist blah blah blah family blah blah blah industrialisation", and i actually fell asleep for a few minutes and most of the time, there were pointless images running through my head so the class was pretty much a blur which is very suprising to me considering i've finally shown interest in sociology this year.

After Socio class which felt like forever and brief at the same time, met up with Nysa, Mira and Fadil and we went to the kantin/dining hall which totally made my day. So the absolute downpour that happened yesterday ultimately soaked the dining hall floors, today i made a decision to where different shoes because my previous shoes are drenched in mud which caused this unwanted ripple effect, because of the first downpour, i got mud all over my shoes and because of that i decided to wear different shoes today and because of the doenpour that happened yesterday, the dining hall floor was totally wet...

so as we entered the dining hall, i immediately made a scene cause due to the wet floor i was slipping all over the place, it looked like i was shuffling but thank god, Nysa and Mira were beside me so i grabbed them and prevented myself from falling, people's heads turned as they saw my grand entrance but i ignored it cause what i did didn't look serious... but then when i was on my way to buy food by carefully hanging on to the tables and chairs of the dining hall, while i was talking about my grand entrance to friends who were also at the dining hall, i hanged on to her chair which made me accidentally gave my feet a push which sent me sliding down the floor under a chair, as i lay on the floor, my backside soaked i cant help but hear the laughter and the snicker of the people who saw my totally ungraceful fall... Nysa and Mira helped me up, also laughing at the same time, and i immediately sat onhe nearest chair, pretty flushed and embarrased, i even lost a lil bit of my appetite and my pride, Mira offered to buy my food so i let her...

As i ate there was still laughter, grins and snickers all around the dining hall but hey! shit happens! and im not saying this because of my pride but because im really okay with it because i was with friends and that made the humiliation mild plus at least i had a brief glimpse of fame as the people of the dining hall laughed and stared at me wit glee and i was able to bring laughter to the world... not many people can do that,hahaha~

i even get to saw other people take precautions nothing would happen to them that happened to me~ well, Nysa, Mira and Fadil, although a big help, they laughed sinisterly at me as we ate, hahaha~ a new gleeful memory made in PTEK~ wish it wasn't that god damn embarassing! anyways after that whole slip and slid thing, i lost all mood to attend class so i skipped all my other classes and went home early with a stupid story to tell to my parents and to you~

HAVE A NICE FUCKIN DAY YA'LL!!!!

Happy Monthsary

2009-01-27T23:32:00.003+08:00

SINCE im very bored so im just gonna include this post for today

Happy 7 months of being a happy and adorable couple filled with love to...

my friends/gbl-parents Nysah and Yaya!!!

Field Experiment

2009-01-27T22:52:00.003+08:00

Okay these are lyrics to one of my favourite songs, if anyone visiting this blog knows what the name and artist of the song, please, you are welcomed to answer it in my C-box~

Like a knife in my heart
I'm dyingDying to be with you
Burning inside me
Dying, dying to be

Like a moth to a flame
I'm dying
Dying to be with you
Run but you can't hide
Dying
Dying to be with you

When I first saw you
A feeling crept over me
You'd be my savior
With one kiss,you'd set me free

Your fleshand your blood
It's just a small sacrifice
Do not resist me
Eternal life has its price

I can't kill this deep desire for you
I must have the rush of capturing you
I can't save myself from thinking of you
I won't stop until the day I do
Burning inside me
Burning inside me
Dying to be with you
Dying to be with you

Happy Chinese New Year

2009-01-26T22:44:00.006+08:00

SINCE KMI ADA SEORANG YG BERBANGSA CINA YAKNI SI HONG SOOO HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR HONG AND BTW KWN MU TU CUTE EH YG DI MALL~

JANGAN LUPA AMPAU HOOOONGGG!!! HEHAHA!!!

Awarded???

2009-01-26T01:30:00.004+08:00

to receive this award you must:

1. copy badge "2008 cute blogger award" and paste it in your blog

2. write about the person who present the award to you
i was awarded by Wieyah~ She's the Queen of Hearts, enough said.

3. every blogger must state 10 facts/hobbies about themselves before choosing the next award receiver.
~i am a member of the once problematic group dubbed the GBL~
~i have an obsession over anything purple~
~my bestfriend is the one and only yazid~
~i am forever loyal to my friends but only to the ones that deserve my loyalty~
~i major in english but english is the subject im most bored with~
~i tend to be impulsive when im panicked~
~i am very open-minded and accepting~
~i have a habit of smelling my food before i eat it~
~i like to try new things~
~i have a very disfunctional family~

4. you must choose the next 10 award receivers and state their names in your blog
~im not awarding anyone cause i think everyone i know has received this award~

5. dont forget to visit your friend's blog and tell them they have been tagged

Playing with fire

2009-01-24T17:53:00.006+08:00

Hey guys... i dunno why i start all these blog posts with a "hey guys", its not like anyone's reading this or anything, guess my blog aint that famous from other people's blog but what the heck, i blog because its fun and refreshing~ haha~ soo anyways back to my post... i dunno about the other students from MTHS/5.2 but im totally sick of her! the teacher i mean, since the 3 days i've been in her class, i've already dubbed her Ms PPP, and no, not because i miss Ms PPP aka Peng Pei Pei, my current maths teacher initials mean PsychoPathic Pelacur because, well she a psycho freak hellbent on making her students miserable to the point of DEATH!

YES! DEATH I TELL YOU! DEATH! SHE'S GONNA DESTROY US ALL! REMEMBER MY WORDS! DEATH! D-E-A-T-H-!-!-!

anyways since im slowly dying in her class i asked her to transfer me back to Ms PPP's class and she was like~~~~ i cant explain it! her expression was very grim! i thought she was gonna snap my neck there and then but THANK GOD! she didn't, instead she told me to take it up with HOD of the MTHS department, when i went out of her class, i whispered a silent prayer due to the fact i still had my life! i was SO FREAKIN TERRIFIED!!! god knows how terrified i was! then i went to the HOD's office and explained him about the situation about how im not able to cope with She-Devil's teachings but instead of getting a transfer, you know what i got instead? still the same teacher and a remedial class during lunch at the conference room... wow! totally got a fuckin slap in the face! first slap, i didn't get a transfer, second slap, got myself a remedial class, third slap, if i dont show up during the remedial, the HOD said he knows my name! i didn't just get A fuckin slap in the face, i got THREE fuckin slaps in the face!

OH GODS ABOVE AND BELOW! LUCK IS SO NOT ON MY SIDE TOODAAAY!!

now i have to face that same grim expression of death on tuesday when i come into her class!!! if she so much as glares at me, i swear to lucifer im gonna hit her head with my sociology text book and leave her body to rot... oh yes people! i went there, i went so out there that im starting to love my MTHS teacher last year~ *sigh* somebody remind me why i took MTHS in the first place!!! since im in a roll about the god damn things i hate in this world, i have another thing that i really2 hate so much to the very core that makes my teeth grind so hard that my gums bleed and here it is~

MILEY CYRUS AKA HANNAH MONTANA

why i hate MC??? because i see her face everywhere and im tired of it! plus, the disney good girl role model image is sooo annoying! i dont deny she has talent in singing but... lets just say im the anti-miley, but the army of little girls worshipping her are so cute they make me nauseous, no offense to all you MC or HM lovers but i just dont like her, my opinion is mine and your opinion is yours so dont make a fuss over this! the only thing i like about her is...

wow! what a good role model she is, showing off her breasts and her body in full glory, you see, this is the one thing i like about her, underage and already causing a controversy, and everyone knows i looovee controversy =)

oh yess, she totally rocks in this picture lookin all hot and slutty, NOT! but she does look a lil bit slutty, oh who am i kidding! she loooks very2 slutty, oh hannah montana/miley cyrus, you are one step closer in becoming...

AMERICA'S NEXT TOP CELEBUWHORE!!!! KEEP UP THE WHORE-RIBBLE WORK!!!

Happy Belated Birthday Post, Happy Birthday Dinx! 20 eh~

2009-01-23T21:34:00.003+08:00

OKAY... SO ON THURSDAY WAS FREAKY D MOZ'S BIRTHDAY~ AND TO CELEBRATE WE SUPRISED HIM WITH A BIRTHDAY CAKE AT THE BC, WE WANTED TO BUY HIM AN ICE-CREAM BUT THE CAKE SHOPS ALL AROUND GADONG HAD BLACKOUTS SO, THE ICE-CREAM CAKES WERE EITHER TOOO SOFT OR ALREADY MELTING SO SORRY TO DISSAPOINT FREAKY~ AND SORRY OUR SUPRISE WAS NOT MERIAH =( BUT HOPE YOU HAD FUN DINX!

Every day is day one

2009-01-19T19:16:00.003+08:00

"Its like a new age, a time for second chances"

"The whole world's waking up now, to the realisation that there are no guarantees"

"Forgiveness cant wait, Love cant wait and there isn't time for fear or regret"

"Every day is day one"

All quotes i borrowed from the latest book that i've read and fallen in love with;

SOULLESS by CHRISTOPHER GOLDEN

At first i read it modestly... trying to give the book a chance, then as the story goes on, i cant help but wanting... wanting to know what was going to happen next... as i turned each page, tracing each word gently with my perfectly manicured finger, empathy took over me... every emotion i experienced after that came from the book, fear, despair, panic... every sentence, i visualise with excruciating detail... the decaying corpse, the blood drenched streets, the torn flesh and the blood curtling screams... the images were played in my mind, i was reading a book yet i was also watching movie except, it was in my mind~ oh the horror, people ripped apart limb from limb, their living flesh torn from their faces by the dead's teeth, their guts gnawed at... the irony of the book is, that the dead are seeking out those who loved them in life and those they left behind and it is those loved ones that dead feast on~ the idea of you getting eaten by the person you loved is very disturbing yet somehow poetic in a way~ SOULLESS grabs you by the throat and doesn't let you go until the very last page, if your imagination is stronger than you'd imagine, then i suggest you read it with the light on...

The Weird Way how the World Works Which I Unwillingly accept

2009-01-17T19:38:00.002+08:00

Hey guys, just got back from watching a movie with Hong and Zid, the movie was "Bedtime Stories, it was good but not that great cause its kinda like a "kid movie" or a better way to describe it, its a sort of "Disney-ish movie"... anyways while at the mall i met someone whom i sorta like, wow! in having a crush confession! wawawa! actually there are probably 2 or 3 people in this country that im crushing for and this "someone" is one of them! i even got to hug this "someone", hahaha! praise the lord for presenting this opportunity! yay! hahaha! anyways, lets rewind~ before watchin the movie, we went to vist the GBL-MD and ate together at thyes then we had a good old hangin out thing at the BC, our safe haven and well, where we have fun and cohabitate~ it was good to spend those times with freaky and yazid~ i miss them both! so much! i miss talking to them about the "someones" and talking to them about life and the stresses that come along with it~ gawd! i really need to find another way to vent my issues~ anyways, today was actually the day me n zid wanted to register to study zone, so i invited freaky and hong along to join but in the end freaky had to go home early, thats why only the 3 of us watched the movie... Soo anyways i already told my dad by text that i was watching a movie with a friend and when i finally got home, mom was in a very bitchy mood saying things like if im done with the a-level, she wouldnt care if i never went home and trust me her toungue can be very venomous during time like these, i mean what the fuck! if ya didnt want me to go scurrying off with my friends, you could've told dad to tell me to get my ass back home! i mean i already told that and he was okay with it, i wont mind if mom would've just told me not to go instead being this bitch from hell... anyways, whatever, all water under the bridge... its funny how little things like this turns people into ugly beasts, and i meant both me and my mom cause we are both exerting unfriendly auras like, its not like watching a couple of movies with friends will crash a whole year of studying, i get that she wants me to be successful but what i actually want from then till now is a simple life with a simple job and society's acceptance, no stress and no fuss, bt nooo, the world is never simple therefore life will never be simple and society? well, lets just say that they still have problems with my kind that seem to never dissapear~ thats just the way the world works, and i must accept eventhough its weird to accept it instead of doing anything about, well im just a tear drop in an ocean full of people, what can one little tear drop do~ lets just face the facts of life~ on another note, i've changed my blocks in school;
Block 1-Eng Lit
Block 2-PS
Block 3-Socio
Block 4-EAS
Block 5 -Maths
now at least i have friends in Eng Lit and Sociology sooo its gooood~ haha~ today was actually great, minus the rampaging bull of a mother i have, but that wont keep me down, i may be just a tiny lil tear drop but im a feisty tiny lil tear drop who will do something big with his life, one small step at a time~

The Rational Reaction of one's Respective Ramshackled and Rabid Reality

2009-01-16T19:26:00.005+08:00

i've been cutting down on caffeine these past few days hoping that my weird, sick and icky dreams would be gone and indeed they have but another form of dreams have taken its place...
the dreams that im havin now are way better than formerly weird dreams but problem is that its disturbing, sure it aint sick or anythin but i cant but help to try to figure out what they mean, the dreams are portrayed in such a way that it acts a warning of some sort... maybe a sort of premonition maybe... its not that i've never had dreams like these but usually they come by once maybe twice a month, not everytime i fall asleep, its creepin me out really, but hey the mind can play nasty and insensitive tricks on your ass so might as well take it like a bitch, its not like we can change what we dream, right? sometimes i even forget that the dreams were dreams cause they kind of act as an old memory of some sort, no exagerations whatsoever, sooo kind of lost my reality for a little while but luckily yesterday we met with the GBL-MD so i felt blissful even if it was only for a few hours, had talks with Yazid, my bestie along with some laughs and also had some laughs with Freaky, whom i now consider as one of my besties, i hope he does to... havent told anyone bout the dreams but... i guess im not ready, besides their just dreams, i'd be wasting other people's precious time, anyways, to try to stir my dreams into another direction, i've been reading books about fantasy, books i bought a long time ago but havent read and kind of regreted did'nt read it earlier cause its a very good book and i also had a video call with Freaky, yesterday and we talked for about an hour and a half give or take, it was kind of a friendship talk so i wont be filling in the details but it was fun and im thankful that i heve besties like a Freaky and Yazid... speaking bout besties i'll mention my other 2 besties, Fadh and Nqb... below is the "Prnt Scrn" i took during the video call with Freaky and the current book im reading while doing this post...

Pardon the smile, i was trying to be cute posing with my birthday presents, the teddy was from zid and the devil was from hong...

the book is called "revealers" by amanda marrone

Ring around the rosie, and around and around repeatedly

2009-01-14T21:12:00.003+08:00

i forgot to blog about this afternoon cause it just came to my mind~ hehehe! today, nys was the one to send me home, we went off from school at about 2.30 so when we reached at tanjung bunut we decided to find a place to hang and so we entered selayun just for kicks but then... the first time, we just kept going left and ended up at the beginning! turns out we were driving in a circle,hahaha! pacah, but then nys decided to have a go at it again so we entered selayun the 2nd time but this time when we saw the simpang that said selayun jerudong we went in and about a half and hour and an uncountable amount of humps later we finally found a way out! gila wah! mna bnyak simpang2 nya ah! we saw a goat which i thought to be a weird creature because the first thing i saw was its ass so i thought it was some sort of headless creature or somethin! hahaha! gila wh tu yo! tekajut th! we also went throught the most larak jln ever! D MOST th lupak nya ah! and also countless amounts of beautiful houses, tampat org kaya tmpt dlm2 ah! and also encountered many creepy trees and even a tree branch that looks like a dick! hahaha! but when we finally got out of that freakin maze we went to jerudong park tmpat org makn yg kosong ah and we lepak'd there while playing cards which i lost continuusly! rugged th tmpatnya tpi dang! benyamuk kaliah! hahahahahah! anyways just wanted to add that to my blog posts today,hehehehe

Todays deisignated driver ~~~~~~~ NYSAH ~~~~~~~

Delusional DubDub Danger

2009-01-14T18:38:00.002+08:00

Hey ya'll! so its been wha? more than a week since i became a PTEK and we've created the new GBL dubbed GGS... and heard that JT is now officially the head of discipline in PTEK and already the GGS is on the way in gettin banned all due some snobby parents complaining of seeing students smokin at the GS, apakn? luan jwa eh! what they dont know wont hurt wh! mcm th kmi membwa anak kmu besigup! malas kuu ah... and it is also said that the people who hang out at the GS should be reported... kn mati kalieh... over~ lau GS off limits, di mana th kn kmi lepak tuu, where do we go to be unseen by the social conformists? huh? social deviance have no place to coincide with the social conformists! te bwa Socio tarus dang! jan nda galat! hahaha! oh and did i mention my socio teacher is Rahmah and for my first impression to my socio classmates this year is by coming into class half an hour late cause i didnt attend the first day so i didnt know the afternoon class started at 1 soo jdi D MOST th! hahaha~and i also enjoy my math now because of MS PPP, rugged kn the nicknmae i gave her! haahaha~ anyways back to the main point... since JT is the head of discipline, and the GGS is gonna be off-limits that means... another danger to confront! wow! hahaha~ rugged eh! hahaha~

Music Playing: Halo by Bethany Joy Lenz

The Irreversibly Insane Insomniac Mind Scarring Instituion

2009-01-14T00:39:00.004+08:00

Its 1 a.m.-ish and i cant get myself to sleep, dunno why but its seriously cramping my sleeping schedule dude! seriously and whenever i sleep i have these very sick dreams that would probably make mentally scarred, sooo, im not a big fan of my dreams these day but they would'nt be considered as nightmares but... god wish i could unload all this fucked up dreams to Z but malangnya ia d MD soo im left here having brief flashes of those weord twisted and maniacle dreams.... i feel so unholy right now... maybe hong was right, maybe the caffeine from the icy lemon tea can effect sleep therefore affect dreams... seram... mental note to self~ temporarily stop drinking the icy lemon tea and look up dream therapy online =) oh, i remember the nights when my dreams used to be normal and filled with adventure and good things that dont make sense but now, i would rather stay up and have insomnia than having these twisted, sick and shall i say hellish dreams.... ewww, had another sick dream flash and it aint pretty and i dont even have the stomach to describe it... guess be better that i stop before i pass out =s

Praise the Tech

2009-01-12T21:19:00.005+08:00

Hey! today we have already started learning and to my unluckiness, my classmates arent, well, as you say "meriah"... my Eng Lit was okay since i knew about 8 of the people there but heres the catch, there the "front" people, u know, people who hang in the front during in MD, hahahaha! so there's some social awkwardness because they already know each other, seriously, in my ELT class, everyone knows everyone with the exception of me sooo again, social awkwardness~ wow!!! hahaha! my EAS class was a bit peculiar, cause the teacher, i think, has some sort of mental disorder or something but he's kind and all but he's the type that i would not describe as "just my regular cup of tea", he talks to cats, mumbles to himself and has a big ass accent that half of the time i dont understand... and last but not least MTHS, im in the cute teacher's class, hehehehe~ she's petite, cute and has slight curves but she does lack in the booby and booty section but she's nice so i'll give her a thumbs up... for now... there's plenty of time for her to go berserk soooo we'll see how it goes.... sooo, i had a video call with Freaky last night and lets just say our convo was very meriah eventhough there was a bit of a hearing problem on both sides, hahahaha! in Freaky's own words, he said our convo was "cakap pasal si ani and cakap pasal si atu" hahahaha! who we talked about? well the question should be, who we DIDNT talk about!!! hahahah! so we ended up "print screen" and here is the result, plus i added the "print screen" from my webcam-ing with Fadh last 2 weeks

At a Lost

2009-01-11T20:00:00.002+08:00

So, i was rummaging through my bag and guess what i found out, well, to be precise, guess what i lost? my school schedule along with the rooms that im supposed to be in each block... So i automatically shout (in my head, mind you) "IM SCREWED!!!"... so here i am tryin to figure out how am i gonna find my classes tomorrow... guess i hafta meet with the teacher again tomorrow morning... oh god and im so not totally in the mood for scolding... well... anyways tomorrow is gonna be a tough day cause were gonna start learning tomorrow... but hope to god that i'll be in a studying mood tomorrow cause i really need to score during both june and november sooo... i'll keep my party mode on the down-low... sooo... anyways during these crisis, i usually buy lots and lots of DVD's to cope with the stress but problem is... i've bought and seen every new releases of TV series so im coming up short of DVDs to watch next week! OH NO!!! btw next week im gona register to S2dy Zone for Maths and hopefully EAS sooo... guess i'll be near gadong after all...

The Middleman Montage

2009-01-11T11:39:00.011+08:00

So i could not find the perfect middleman trailer so i'll give u the next best thing, a middleman photo montage~ enjoy~

The Middleman Logo

Starring; The Very Hot Matt Keeslar

and the equally hot Natalie Morales

The cast of Middleman

The Floor-hits-ass predicament

2009-01-10T20:07:00.002+08:00

FINALLY!!! The individual schedules have finally been given out!!! and im sad to say that, i dont have a friend in Sociology, Maths, English Lit and EAS! everyone i knew who are taking these subjects have different blocks than mine, and their blocks are also different from each other! its like brabis hantap ya menshuffle! and btw my PS is now BLCK 2 and thank god my PS is the same with Fadil's, yay! jdi tah anyways yesterday we went swimming and as you know last night was the biggest ass rain storm ever! i mean, i told my parents i'd be home by 8 but because of the biggest ass rain storm ever! we had to shelter ourselves at kiulap where we played pool and while some of us played cards... we ended up going home at 10+, i know its like early but skulah plg sudah ne~ malas ku ah... my parents were pretty pissed more or less, and to add to that, on my way rushing into my house i slipped on the very wet verandah due to the biggest ass rain storn ever! and went tumbling down like a house of cards... my ass and thigh still aches until now, god! that was an extremely hard fall, thank god i fell ass first, but i was still laughed at by my bro, bro-in-law and friend of bro's who were hangin at the verandah... embarassing? well... YES!!! but in the end my parents were like slamba! shit! i slipped on hard tiles for nothing!!! shit!! hahaahaha but last night was very fun cause its been a while since we just... hanged out.... and today i spent time in md with the GGS =) and the GBL... and then watched "YES man" with my bestest bud who is totally lonely in MD and had a new haircut... YAZID! hahahaha! owh and i would just like to inform you the new TV series that i fell in love with... "The Middleman" starring Matt Keeslar and Natalie Morales... i'll post the pics later.... 5 words describing the show; Hillarious, Quirky, Action-filled, Sci-fi and Supernatural =)

Infinite Human Stupidity

2009-01-09T11:30:00.002+08:00

Okay, So its been 4 days that we've been a PTEK-ian and theres so much to complain about im not gonna bitch about it in this whole post... well, i havent been blogging much cause im afraid theres nothing much to blog about but now there IS something to blog about cause guess what? JT aka Jimmy Toh the infamous foe but sometimes ally of the GBL is now in Katok... WOW!!! we are like so lucky dude! hahaha, anyways, for the past 2 days, been spending after lunch blocks with Nys cause she's the only 1 free during those blocks... cause of that, now, i can play Joker, hahahah! D Most th! Ktawa tya ganya kmi dang! jgn nda galat! hahahah! anyways based on the post title, here is the reason why the only 2 things that are infinite is the universe and human stupidity, its just the first week in school and already were escaping classes and we dont even care about the consequences, hahahahah! we know its wrong but we still do it, one of the reasons why human stupidity is infinite! you should keep that in mind thought....

Phrase of the Day=The only 2 things that are infinite is the universe and human stupidity

Phrase of the day brought to you by my BRO

School From Hell... Well, South of Hell actually...

2009-01-05T22:33:00.015+08:00

So today we finally came to KATOK and lemme tell u that the school is soooo bullshit! no place to hang out, no place to escape and definitely no place to smoke! im really considering that MD even with its hellish SA demons, that MD is way better! Yazid was supposed to a PTEK but due to the school's kait betakang-ness, he was sent back to MD because PTEK did'nt have any computers for IT students... but useless sewing machines they bought!!! apa?!? kn jdikn kilang kh skulah ah?! kmi jdi tukang jahit!!! and the discipline teacher makes Cgu Lina an Angel... D Most ah! first day tah meneriali org ah!! palui!!! and BTW today is HONGS 20th BIRTHDAY!!!! YAY!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONG!!!!

Belated New Years Pics

2009-01-05T21:06:00.010+08:00

Here are some picture from the GBL new year gathering... i know that its bit late but considering the GBL status right now... i think its best to post as much GBL pics during happier times =) So Enjoy please...