4 days of crap and a whole lot of Cigarettes

My last post was on the 26th, today is 30th, 4 days~ in these 4 days~ Chaos... Misery... Pressure... DVD's... Novels... Green Tea... Root Beer... and a whole lot Cigarettes...

My AS exams are starting in roughly 2 weeks and Damn! Stress is such a mega bitch~ Its probably been more or less a week since i last entered my ELT and EAS class, i havent even started finishing my piled-up ELT assignments but frankly i dont give a rats ass anymore, i have other things to think about~ I've watched the second disc of Reaper Season 2 and im getting more intrigued plus Bret Harrison seems to be getting more muscular. Nice. Missy Peregrym still maintains which is fine with cause she's totally hot! Aint nothin wrong about her. Oh and the one playing the half-brother of Bret Harrison's character, Armie Hammer, is a total eyecandy too~ hehehe~ hotties th bnar~

The Cast of Reaper

Reaper Cast
The Adorkably Hot Bret Harrison
Missy Peregrym, Damn! Such a sexy vixen

Current book im reading~ Delightfully addictive

Too early for Hallowen aint it?

Im blogging and doing my homework at the same time right now, for your information mind you. I would've done my homework earlier but today i stared my nap at about 5+ pm and woke up about 10+ pm, crazy right? nah! not as crazy as the day i had today, im thinkin that the GBL from PTEK are probably done with their masquerade party which is tonight. This afternoon me along with the other GBL accompanied Nys to athirah to buy maquerade masks for tonight and while she was busy trying out masks which were exquisite mind you, the four of us (Zid, Freaky, Mira and Me) took advantage of being in a sort-of costume shop. Can you say dress-up? Hehehehe~

Me and Afro-Zid

Me, Afro-Zid and Mira-arg!
Afro-bulat, Mira jackson and Zid-arg!
Bulat the Disco pirate, Zid the playah, and Freaky Pink!

Freaky Britney and Blue Slash (you gotta love that japanese bubblegum pop!)

Hmmmm... 2 crazy old hags? hahaha!!!

Eventually, we exit out the shop once Nys found the perfect maquerade mask, went to the BC to drop-off Saiful and Akim then the 3 of us (Zid, Freak and Me) went to eat at Thyes where i found out that Zid actually noticed my unusual quirks~ Heheh~ and we actually talked about quirks which were very informative~ haha, Well thats all so Ciao!

Sooo... What else is new?

its friday, and i have loads of assignments to do but im just too much of a slacker to even care and i cant even seem to care about the AS cause thinking about it wont change anything... I'd like to approach AS with as much optimism that i can muster because i tend to break down in the exam room~ Damn my timidness! Anyways, im missin spending tym with my besties at MD, although we did spend time together on the 21st April, Wednesday. On that day we went to Brunei's museum because they had a japanese pottery display for Art students and Freaky is an Art student and he brought Me, Yazid, Nana, Gjan and Amey along, we ended up checking out all the displays in the museum which was not much but hey, what'd you expect? hahaha, anyways things at school is monotonous as ever! i tend to wander off somewhere during Maths class and i mean literally, i went out of the class and wandered off... Elit, I dunno, what happened in Elit? (stares blankly into space).... Anyways, Socio is gettin better, i think, oh its gettin better all right and i have a Socio Mini-Test tomorrow! Yay, who doesn't love tests? hmmm?

EAS? no comment there, did i even enter EAS? hmmm? (trying to remember....) Nothing, i think i didn't enter any EAS classes this week, i guess i'll go in tomorrow, what a killjoy, frankly everything about school is boring except for the friends... oh, there was something interesting that had happened in school yesterday and that was my victory over the mega bitch that is ****, i considered myself as the victor though because he went down with a cheapshot, damn, there is no honor in his lost but who cares? i won without using a cheapshot! i think i didn't use a cheapshot! Regardless, it feels very good to be able to one-up him but i think this oral assault on each other should stop but he started all of it and im not the one who would just lie down and take it like a bitch okay? i'll try to let it slide next time but a humiliating demise always makes my day =) Lets just hope he wont start bitching at me again tomorrow, im so tired of his bullshit... Anyways thats all i gotta say and goodbye!

Current book im reading~ Funny!

El-Ninyo! Its burnin hot!

Is it just me or is the world just getting hotter??? through pure intuition, im guessin the answer would be the latter... Damn! its hot as hell! and there are barely clouds to provide shade from the blistering sun light leaving everyone exposed (baie! stiap hari th beamput sma matahari ah!). I mean seriously brabisly panas plg, but alhamdulilah pasal panas pun, kurnia dri tuhan jwa eventhough kn mati-matian jilama dehydrated! hahaha! but walaupun panas when im in my room i feel so much better because of my dear Snow White (my aircon) cause her cold breeze caresses my skin with such permafrost that my whole body feels numb and i forget about the heat. Wow! poetic eh! hahah!

In other news, school has been shit flushed down the crapper, with all the stuff going on about students complaining about teachers, one of my teachers got affected and he kinda changed... Now he's more bitchy with his snarky remarks, before i would just smile and didn't take it to heart but now its just that his words ooze with venom and it felt like a clear slap on the face, somehow i resent him a lil bit now but who knows what the future may hold so im trying to be patient with the bullshit that comes out of his mouth. Now about Maths, since we changed teachers, my attitude toward maths is worsened, i come late, i sleep in class and the ever original, not even entering at all, SERIOUSLY!!!! im like the black sheep in the class and my maths classmates love to underestimate me and act like im the idiot of the class, well i may be ONE of the idiots in the class but im certainly not the most idiotic. (people have strengths and weaknesses and Maths is my weakness so screw ya'll!). My attitude towards Socio and EAS are still intact though so im not a total loss, hehehe...

Tuition though is a different story, i love tuition! heehee, because thats where i can study and at the same time show my true personality which i dont do in school cause in school i act like a speck of dust, im there, my presence is known but not acknowledged very much. Heheh, the way i think about it is, that its safe to act like you dont care in class because then you'll know whose an ally and whose a foe because some people, org yg D'Moz, like to only associate with the smart ones because it benefits them in many ways thus they ignore the existence of the underachievers. Well, thats just my way of thinking. Anyways i also love my Socio tuition eventhough im in the same group as that Mega Bitch ****, that Fucking Cunt really enjoys making my blood boil, but i also sometimes enjoy our banters because i love to indulge myself in his humiliating defeat once the point is gained by me, Mwahahah! but generally he's an sorta okay guy minus the bitchy show-offy part. =) Well, thats all i gotta say, hehehe, Ciao!

The current book im reading....

Sizzle and Burn You Mega Bitch!

Time for an update people, i know its been like a week since my last post, that was because of a huge mega bitch that i'd like to call 'Doing my A-levels', seriously this studying thing is making my skin break out ya know, damn! i have tuition 4 days a week for Maths and Socio, and thats at night, i come home from school at about 3pm - 4pm depending on the day and out of those 4 days of tuition, 3 of them start at 5pm and all 4 of them end at 8.30pm to 9pm, and imagine coming home from tuition to do homework because i dont have time to do it after school to save my energy for tuition... im gonna go Crazy! but to counteract this stressful stuff, i've been buying DVD's and books so that i could watch and read secretly in my room without being pressured to study. I mean i've been pressured to study every fucking night of every fucking day of the fucking week and im getting fucking tired! i get the fucking study for my fucking A-levels thing but i also fucking need to release at least a fucking bit of fucking stress, there are at times i forget to eat enough food to give me energy. Oh Fuck It!!!! There's absolutely no use of me writing it here! At least some of the fucking anger has seeped into this fucking post so i feel so much fucking better!

In other fucking news, i've bought 'Pushing Daisies' Season 2 and it fucking cracked me up, and for that specific day when i watched it, it made me forget the things that i was stressed about, thank god for small miracles! too bad the series have been cancelled! what a fucking sad new it is! people today dont appreciate fucking creativity! all people want is fucking action, fucking brain dead comedy and probably just people fucking! pretty fucking pathetic really! dont take any fucking offense really, you dont like what i fucking said then fucking ignore it you asshat! Anyways i shall forever be a fucking fan of 'Pushing Daisies'...

This is the current book im reading, actually fucking good~

Bouncing ecstacy =)

Its 5.42pm right now and its rainin heavily like somethin in the movies... anyways its very cold by the way, and i just woke up at about 3.43pm, actually i've slept for 11 hours already soo really gila wah tuu yo!! you knwo why? cause i slep at about 4am and you know what i did till 4am? (No! i didn't do anythin kinky mind you) Times up! i played on the bouncer slide!!! hahaha! and my back is achin right now because of the so many versatile landings that lacked any elegance, hahaha! we started playing at about 12am or so, well, the bouncer was there because of my nephew's birthday celebration yesterday which i mentioned in my last post which was yesterday! the reason we played so late was because we waited till all the kids were gone, the bouncer was not gonna get picked up by today at about after 6am or so. So, when the kids were gone for the day, the adults finally came out to play! hahaha, the ones who were on the bouncer slide along with me were my Bro and 3 of my other cousins... hahaha, and lemme say, so much stunts we did, that it wore out our bodies, my Bro even screamed at the top of his lungs when a part of his burned skin was ripped off while he did a sort of back-flip move... I laughed so hard that i couldn't breathe because i've never heard my Bro scream that loud...

WE even did a stunt where when i slid down to the pool, my cousin Lobo jumps pass me like you know the olimpic jumping thing where you use a pole while my other cousin LP recorded it on video. It looked totally cool yo! jan nda galat! hahaha, even though i was at risk of being body slam should my cousin fail to jump pass me! hahaha! anyways i played till 4am cause i was very tired plus i climbed up the slide most of the time because of the olympic jumping thing, you know how many times did they try it??? gila wah!!! hahaha! i even got to do a backflip and also where at the top of the slide, i layed down sideways and my Bro pushes me down, it resulted in me rolling down many times! but when i landed at the bottom, my back was damn totalled, i couldn't blink for 10 minutes!!! hahaha! it really hut my back though, hahaha! anyways that all that i wanna tell, hahah, the most importan thing is that i had fun! =) Ciao!

~Because he's hot?~

Hostile Home Environment

Im in my room, hiding from the madness that is family gatherings... Today were celebrating my nephew's birthday in a huge way! there's fireworks, catering, bouncer slide and other over-the-top things~ Esh, My sis biasa! everything must be extravagant blah blah blah~ each time there's a family function, she becomes a very annoying and maddening Ultima Bitch cause she's the control freak in the family, macam ia punya responsibility sja si taie ah! Even during her wedding, she was the Mega Bitch of them all! diri yg kawin diri yg spatut yg chillax, ani ia tya plg over2 mcm org gila baie! Anyways, im hiding because my familia is all about stereotypes, the guys either talk about football, cars, fishing and weight-lifting, all of which im not interested in which is why im hiding in my room soo i wont drown with all the testosterone flooding the house, plus all the guys are watching football now, so its best to avoid that. The girls are all grouped, watching AF, also not a thing im interested in, plus their talking about "stuff" i shouldn't hear cause it might make my ears bleed. You see, not even a unique personality i this damn house which is why my presence here is very awkward, i wish i could sneak out of here and go somewhere else!

Now i wish i had a cigarette, seriously, theres constant pressure here to portray myself as a normal guy, you know, talk about sports, fishing, cars and girls... Hello!!! boooring much, i mean like seriously! i know im the black sheep of the family, im probably the only one who can think outside the box and im also probably the only one whose open-minded here. Probably why im not that close to my relatives, im close to my family though, but that's just an act, what i am in front of them is not what i am entirely. Seriously cant wait to get a driver's license or a place of my own, mind you, just because i wanna have a place of my own doesn't mean that im tryin to abandon my family. Its just the only way so that i could live my life as myself, as my own person, i wouldn't have to hide my true self. Sometimes i feel that im more of myself in school rather than at home.


Anyways, today at school, i just got my results on my latest Maths Test and i got a 2 out of 50!!! praise the lord! hahaha! im damn proud cause that test was a Mega Bitch and i aint gonna care what i got or what im gonna get cause im a slightly carefree person at school. At home, im as carefree as a kitten chained to a bottom of a lake. Oh yeah, later today, during the aftanoon, we went to the BC and i met up with Freak and he brought Yunni!!! Damn i kinda miss that girl, who am i kidding! i miss bitching with her about someone else, hahaha! like i used to say to Yunn "Girl, you my bitch!", that means, "Girl, you my dawg!". I used to say that to Yunn cause well we can be Mega Bitches Yo!!! and we like to Bitch owkay! hahaha! Nadadeh, mna kmi bitching, kmi ngumpat sja, hahaha! Anyways, had a meaningful conversation with Yunn today, hope what i said can help her in anyway and Good Luck Yunn!!! Girl, You my Bitch! cause we is Mega Bictches gurl, you go on with yo life and stay gorgeous honeychild!

PS: im so jealous cause Yunn's gettin thinner!!! Waaaa!! i wanna be thin too!!!

~Saja Wah!~

Dollhouse

Eliza Dushku plays a young woman called Echo, a member of a group of people known as "Actives" or "Dolls". The Dolls are people whose personalities and existence in the outside world have been wiped clean so they can be imprinted with any number of new personas, including memory, muscle memory, skills, and language, for different assignments (referred to as engagements). The new persona is an amalgam of several real people, and the end result necessarily incorporates both strengths and flaws from the template personalities. The Actives are then hired out for particular jobs – crimes, fantasies, and the occasional good deed. On engagements, Actives are monitored internally (and remotely) by Handlers. In between engagements they are mind-wiped into a child-like state and live in a futuristic dormitory/laboratory, a hidden facility nicknamed "The Dollhouse". The Dollhouse is located somewhere in Los Angeles and is a subsidiary of a mysterious research group known as the Rossum Corporation.

The story follows Echo, who begins, in her mind-wiped state, to become self-aware.

The show also focuses on the employees of the mysterious "Dollhouse" and two other "Dolls", Sierra and Victor (played by Dichen Lachman and Enver Gjokaj), who are friendly with Echo. The names of Actives are simply letters in the phonetic alphabet. Although the Actives are ostensibly volunteers who work for a period of five years, the operation is highly illegal and under constant threat on one end from Paul Ballard (Tahmoh Penikett), a determined federal agent who has heard a rumor about the Dolls, and an insane rogue Active, "Alpha", on the other.


The Dollhouse cast. L to R: Agent Ballard, Victor, Echo, Sierra, Topher Brink, Adelle DeWitt, Boyd Langton

What an Ultima Bitch

So today was like the day from hell!!! more or less cause i was supposed to have 3 tests today but due my Lit teacher gone MIA during my Lit class, the 3 tests became 2 soo the tests i had today were Maths and EAS... The Maths today was a total Mega Bitch, we had like 6 questions overall with each main question there were also sub-questions so there were like more or less 11 Qs... Guess what i did, i was finished with Qs 1A and 1B then tried a few Qs but to no avail, when i realised there was 10 minutes left i decided to look at my progress and apparently, the only Qs i answered were 1A and 1B for the whole hour!!! So, i ended up laughing at myself during the test cause it was pretty silly, and i only had 1 page for my answer sheet soo that looked totally fuckin Bad~ After that was Lit class where i probably did nothing and after that was the EAS test but i need not worry about EAS cause i think i have a slight chance of passing~

After all of the tests were over, it was already lunch time and i was totally losing it during lunch and when i meant losing it, i was releasing every bit of stress that flooded my body in which case made me laugh maniacly for a very long long long time... On another separate note, due to an on-the-spot decision, this afternoon i watched a movie called "Knowing" with AA, BB, Nys, Ya2, Hong, Sipul and a new acquaintance, Marr~ That totally cooled me down totally soo thats all and Ciao!

Updates

Its April! So Happy Belated April Fool!!! and Happy Belated birthday to my good friend Eyan~ i know its already very2 late but i already greeted during her birthday sooo nothing wrong there! haha!

~Eyan~

In other unimportant news, im officially both clinically and physically stressed~ wait, what the hell am i saying! actually im a 100% stressed! its April and my AS exams are mostly in May so screw you fate! for giving me (and most probably a lot of people) terrible misgivings and terrible luck! Well, thats true blue life for ya, its generally impossible for destiny or fate or whatever people call it to not screw with people's lives... it cant be helped, all we miniscule beings living on this earth just has to take it like a bitch like we're destiny/fate's personal whore~ wow! very colourful language there but dont mind me im just finding an excuse to blame something other than myself for not having confidence in my mind and spirit to face the fuckin exam head on!

Another unimportant news~ i have entered each and every one of my classes for 3 days straight! daym! i do declayer thayt im proud of lil ol me! aint thayt ineresteyng! haha! but please honeychild they aint no reyson to applaude cuz ma mind goes all nothin like when im in mayth soo its kinda lyk ma bady is theyre but ma mind is sumwheyre eylse! Okay, to shit with what im posting right now cause my mind is all jumbled up, to make sense of the previous sentence, try reading it with a southern american accent~ hehe! what the hell!!! what the hell!! what the hell!!

nothing makes sense right??? well to hell with it cause im just venting my ass off, hahaha~

~Because i want to?~