What a day!

Okay today was the big day for my presentation and boy was i nervous! My heart felt like it would leap out of my chest and do the riverdance! But thankfully i wasn't the only one who got nervous, as they say, misery loves company, HaHaHa... XD

Anyways, in the end, our presentation was not bad, it didn't stink nor did it rock, it was just so-so which was fine by me cause when it was my turn to present, i was a hot tranny mess!!! But fortunately Hong sucked even more than me so he took the spotlight away from me so i was loving him today for doing that. What was more painful than the presentation was the question and answer session after which we barely survived thanks to our leader Azim. Plus, i'm hating on one of the guys who asked us questions cause his question was downright fucking cruel!!! I hate you guy whose name i don't know and wont care to know! I'm keeping my eye on you so you better watch out bitch! Anyways, got a little bit carried away there, the lecturer said our presentation was okay but needs a hell of a lot of work, so yay! us!

After the presentation, i accompanied Dee & Azim with their admin chores and whatever until i could meet up with Lala & Yul cause i wanted to discuss with them how to commence out ELAL assignment. Ain't i lucky? After 1 assignment is done, i go straight to doing another 1 and i'm still left with 2 other assignments, life is so full of joy! T_T"

Anyways i met with Lala & Yul at the library, where they are also trying to finish their CL assignment, so basically i actually came there for nothing cause they ended up spending the whole time tring to do thei own thing while i do mine, which was no biggie since i've only known them for like 2 weeks. Moving on, during my time at the library i met many people i knew like my cousin, Freak's Brother's Fiance, Zack from orientation and Hafiz from orientation so that felt a little bit weird, in the end after spending about 2 hours in the library, i failed to accomplish nothing so instead i decided to just quit and go home and live to write another day... =)

Special mention: fast forward to when i was performing the terawih prayer and met with an old friend, Wafi whose on semester break from his uni at Hull UK. We just talked and talked and totally forgot about the witir prayer! hahaha, it was fun catching up with him... XD

Fasting

Yay! today is the first day of ramadhan and everyone's fasting, everyone is going to starve themselves in the name of god, plus, to some, this is a good chance to diet and lose weight, and for those who do both dgn ikhlas with the former than good for you!!! =D

Since its the first day, and its a public holiday, today's fast is going to be easy but once school starts again, baru tya sandi! Hahahah, like me, im fasting and im trying to finish my uni assignment so my stomach is grumbling and my head is banging... i've been given lots of time to finish the assignment but i just cant do it... I'd like to just throw myself at the wind during the presentation but im in a group presentation so if im throwing myself at the wind, im bringing them with me... I FUCKING HATE THIS!!! Not to mention i have no idea what to do for this presentation, i mean i've found the necessary info but i just can expaqnd it and make it intellectual and uni is all about intellect...

*inhales* *exhales* *inhales* *exhales* i really need to chill and mellow out since im fasting but i've been chill and mellow since yesterday... the pressure of uni life is getting to me, i mean like, after lecture yesterday i went straight to the beach on my lonesome and just let go of life... i was like catatonic, i mean my body moved, as in i drank and ate the snacks i brought with me and i smoked the cigs i brought too but my mind was a total black hole, i thought about nothing for more than an hour and once i started to think again, i felt depressed. Cause the fact that i went to the beach just to think about nothing leads me to believe that i've lost my enthusiasm to live...

Which sounds so sad but its not uncommon to me, where is last year whenever i used to lose my reason to live, i would just cut myself but now, since i have a car and a driver's license i can freely handle my stress my own way, by thinking about nothing while lounging around at the beach... Anyways i think my original topic was about fasting but i just got carried away elsewhere sooo have a good fast everyone and wish me luck in my life cause i think i need it... XS

here's a fun take on puasa/fasting =)

Workload

So the rentals are back today from their vacay and i wasn't there to pick them up... but my blings did, cause was busy trying to find info for a presentation this saturday... its only week 2 of being a uni student and already the assignments are piling up! i fucking hate this! i have an mib presentation this saturday, another presentation for English literature due for the next 2 weeks and an english language & linguistics essay about what language i use with my family due in september... So i really feel like crap right now... T_T"

Anyways these past 4 days when my parents were away, i totally did not waste my freedom cause i spent the whole 4 days chilling for myself and hanging out with the besties! yesterday i watched a movie with the besties and i really had a great time... i spent so much time with my besties because after yesterday, i know my schedule will be swamped and i wont have time to spend with them anymore plus yesterday was my last piece of freedom since the rentals are back today...

right now, im actually supposed to find more info for the presentation on saturday but my mind feels just so blank! im a person who loathes work plus, presentations and research are not my thing but alas! these cruel assignments go with being a uni student and im kinda thinking of dropping out and live my life simply which is impossible cause life aint simple. *sigh* i guess i'll resume the research that i was doing... wish me fucking luck! XD

Yay?

So today, dropped off the rentals at the airport cause today their travelling to Johor, Malaysia cause dad is attending an internet trading seminar and mom is joining him. I was supposed to join them but boohoo! I cant cause i have lectures, tutorials and what not... But on the plus side, im free from the rents for 4 days so yay! and being the opportunist that i am, the minute i reached home, i went straight to Mimi's house. Myself. Using the Ford Everest. My initial excuse to my bro was that i wanted to pick up some stuff mimi borrowed which is actually true but also i decided to hang out and chatted with him at his house...

Poor, Mimi! It seems that the injury he had last year is still hurting him. His leg was bandaged very very tight! So we talked and talked and it turns out that the reason his injury is coming back is because everytime his injury subsides, he would go play football therefore bringing more pain to himself. He's such an idiot! Hahahaaha...

Anyways while there took some pictures... and i became Mimi's audience while he ripped on his guitar so the afternoon was good eventhough it was short... And now some pics!

The Ugly Truth

So lately i've been seeing many people post on facebook about being honest and what not... they're saying like they'd rather be told the horrible truth rather than being lied to. Which is utter bullshit! I mean whether your told the ugly truth or been lied to, i suspect our reactions will be the same, the only difference is the time delay of our reactions...

dont get me wrong, i do believe that honesty is the best policy. In fairytales! i mean we live in reality, its not like in the movies where everytime we're being honest and tell the truth, we get a free pass for doing the right thing. Trust me, i speak through experience...

So what if lying is dishonourable? if you lie to protect yourself then thats okay... lying is only not okay if it causes harm to other people. if the lie is to protect you and wont hurt anybody else then thats totally fine... Besides, a good lie is such a terrible thing to waste... =)

A New Begining

Today is the 3rd of August 2010... Which means its been quite a long time since i've last posted anything on this blog of mine... The lack of posts is mostly due to the fact that i was lazy. But not anymore! Last time i posted, i was just finished with my A levels and just started my very very long study break... Now, im already a University student and now approaching week3 of my 1st semester... The reason im starting to post on my blog again is because another chapter of my life is starting and i wanna recap each and every moment of it... From this day on, its a whole new beginning... =D So im sure i'll be posting stuff regularly since there is a whole lot of crap to deal with in this Uni life so things are bound to get interesting. even though its only been 2 weeks, i've been really enjoying myself, meeting new people, making new friends and learning something new. The only regret i have is not being able to spend time with Zid anymore cause he didn't get into UBD, instead he got into ITB, which im thankful for cause basically our colleges are next to each other so we get to meet each other every lunch time and im grateful for that...

Well, thats all i gotta say for now... And wish me luck! Cause i'll definitely need it... XD

Sunrise, the symbol for a new beginning