First Day/Dead in Dallas/Club Dead

Its the first day of school and i entered all of my classes yo!!! Hahaha, take a load of that! despite the fact that i was goin crazy because the devil on my shoulder kept poking me with its damn pitchfork so i wouldn't enter my classes, screw you, you damn mini-satan of my imagination! anyways i barely survived today, well thats probably an exaggeration of my own accord but seriously i had to summon everything of my will so that i wouldn't try to slip out of the classes that i was in! and due to me finishing the first season of TrueBlood, i decided to buy the books by Charlaine Harris the novel that TrueBlood was based on and also no regrets yo!! but i only bought the second and third book of the series sine i basically got the idea of the first book's plot from watching TrueBlood so i didn't need to buy that~ well, thats all i wanna say and ps, the sumbiling pics are coming soon~

Heaven is a place on earth

Guess what??? im in seventh heaven right now!!! and thats because my room has a new air conditioner!!! oh yeah!!! my room aint ever gonna be hot like a hell on sunday!!! mwahaha, it gonna be cold like a woman scorned!!! Nyahaha, and i've already finished watching the first season of TrueBlood, and dude no regrets, its kond of funny, romantic and also campy, i especially love their dialogues!!! the dialogues that i find the most hillarious are;

Tara="im gonna get my baby daddy who just got out of prison to kick your teeth in"
Tara's Boss="jesus tara please dont do anythin..."
Tara="oh my god! im not serious you pathetic racist! i dont have a baby! damn! i know ya'll have to be stupid but do you have to be that stupid??? shit! fuck this job!"

Lafayette="They aint scared of you honeychild, they scared of whats between your legs"
Sookie="Lafayette! thats nasty talk i wont listen to that"
*Arlene enters the scene*
Arlene="Do you even know whats between a woman's leg lafayette?"
Lafayette="I know every man whether straight, gay or george motherfuckin bush is TERRIFIED of the PUSSY"

Sookie="Lafayette!"

This is my new air con, i named it SnowWhite

heart-wrenching poem =(

"This was written by a young girl who was in jail for drug charges and was addicted to crystal meth. She wrote this while in jail. As you will soon read, she fully grasped the horrors of the drug, as she tells in this simple, yet profound poem. She was released from jail, but true to her story, the drug owned her. Please keep praying for our children, teens, young adults. Understand, this thing is worse than any of us realize...

My Name: "Is TICK"

I destroy homes, I tear families apart,
take your children, and that's just the start.
I'm more costly than diamonds, more precious than gold,
The sorrow I bring is a sight to behold.

If you need me, remember! I'm easily found,
I live all around you - in schools and in town.
I live with the rich; I live with the poor,
I live down the street, and maybe next door.

I'm made in a lab, but not like you think,
I can be made under the kitchen sink.
In your child's closet, and even in the woods,
If this scares you to death, well it certainly should.

I have many names, but there's one you know best,
I'm sure you've heard of me, my name is crystal meth.
My power is awesome; try me you'll see,
But if you do, you may never break free.

Just try me once and I might let you go,
But try me twice, and I'll own your soul.
When I possess you, you'll steal and you'll lie,
You do what you have to -- just to get high.

The crimes you'll commit for my narcotic charms
Will be worth the pleasure you'll feel in your arms, (your lungs, and your nose).
You'll lie to your mother; you'll steal from your dad,
When you see their tears, you should feel sad.

But you'll forget your morals and how you were raised,
I'll be your conscience, I'll teach you my ways.
I take kids from parents, and parents from kids,
I turn people from God, and separate friends.

I'll take everything from you, your looks and your pride,
I'll be with you always -- right by your side.
You'll give up everything - your family, your home,
Your friends, your money, then you'll be alone.

I'll take and take, till you have nothing more to give,
When I'm finished with you, you'll be lucky to live.
If you try me be warned - this is no game,
If given the chance, I'll drive you insane.

I'll ravish your body, I'll control your mind,
I'll own you completely, your soul will be mine.
The nightmares I'll give you while lying in bed,
The voices you'll hear, from inside your head.

The sweats, the shakes, the visions you'll see,
I want you to know, these are all gifts from me.
But then it's too late, and you'll know in your heart,
That you are mine, and we shall not part.

You'll regret that you tried me, they always do,
But you came to me, not I to you.
You knew this would happen, many times you were told,
But you challenged my power, and chose to be bold.

You could have said no, and just walked away,
If you could live that day over, now what would you say?
I'll be your master, you will be my slave,
I'll even go with you, when you go to your grave.

Now that you have met me, what will you do?
Will you try me or not? It's all up to you.
I can bring you more misery than words can tell,
Come take my hand, let me lead you to hell.


If you care enough, please forward this profound poem and share the deadly outcome of this drug that is killing our young people & even our old."
~from wanna and dhil's blog~

this poem is actually beautiful~ i loved it! i know it transmits the evil that is crystal meth but the words chosen were very beautiful! it truly reach through my heart~ bravo and lovely, her message shall be passed on~

The trip to Sumbiling

26th March 2009, the trip to sumbiling... Well, to summarise it into words, it was adventurous, fun, exciting and very tiring, also add a little bit of pain to that~ At first i didn't get to register myself to join this trip because i wasn't sure that my parents would allow me to join this potentially adventurous trip but after mentioning about it to them, they gave me the greenlight. However i missed the deadline for the payment of the trip but luckily, i was talking to Jeedah about really wanting to join the trip and found out that she was in charge with handling some stuff regarding with the trip, she convinced me to join and told me that i could just give her the money and that was it, i was officially going on the trip so i was totally ecstatic and very well stoked... After mentioning this to Meera, she tagged along, and also joined the trip. (should've kept my mouth shut... kidding!)

Anyways, yesterday was the day... and i was so psyched that i did not sleep at all the night before yesterday and damn that was a stupid thing to do~ anyways, we went for Bangar, Temburong yesterday at 8am via boat which took an estimated time of 45 minutes and went from Bangar to Sumbiling via a very cool and extravagant tour bus which took an estimated 30 minutes. Our drop off was not exactly at Sumbiling, we had to walk for an estimated 20 minutes from the drop off to Sumbiling and once we've reached the actual Sumbiling Eco Village we rested there where some of us had a snack and a drink while others changed clothes and that included me cause i wore something more casual for the trip so i decided to change into a T-shirt and shorts cause i got a hunch that we were gonna get down and dirty and god dammit i was right...

Our actual trip or journey or adventure, whatever you wanna call it with crossing a river which was not at all deep, probably knee-high give or take in a very small boat. When we reached across we had to hike a very very very very very long trail in a forest, the hike almost killed me, with the catching-up with the guide, the burning hot sun and the very unstable trail i swear to lucifer that i burned a couple of pounds. We walked and walked and walked till we reached a river, and here where all the fun, adventure and pain starts...

once we reached the river, we totally let loose and just fooled around in it and the guides even brought us tubes where me along with others floated around in, it was very refreshing cause the river was well shaded, no sunlight in sight and it was very cold which totally felt good after spending time sweating and enduring the blistering hot sun. after cooling ourselves off, we were give an activity and damn it was bloody difficult, this is where the pain comes in...

We were given the task of building ourselves a raft with 2 tubes, some bamboo and rope that could carry 3 of our team members, 1 team had 10 members. i carried the bamboo while others helped meera tie the bamboo, when were done with our raft, we had to race with the other 3 teams along the river. the 3 that were on the raft needed to row the raft forward along the river while the other members help to accelerate the speed of the boat, easier said than done cause that river was a motherfucking bitch. the river bed was totally inconsistent, it was shallow, deep, shallow, very deep and shallow again. We really had to push really hard when it was shallow which caused me to trip and hit my knee on the rocks on the river bed. When it was deep, the ones who couldn't swim had to hold on to the raft and just go with the flow, this cause my legs to get scraped by the big ass mother fuckin wood on the river bed.

It was very difficult task, on many times i drifted away from my team when the river was really deep. It was also pretty scary especially when 1 of our own who was during that time on the raft and the river was fairly shallow fell overboard, when she fell she slammed her arm on the whatever thing that was on the river bed and due to the shock passed out for a while and thank god it was for a while cause i kinda got worried there for a minute. When she came to i breath of relief came out f me and she was escorted to a boat that brought her back directly to the Sumbiling Eco Village while the ones that were left continued with the so-called race. The river was very long so it took an ample amount of time to finally reach the finish point and along the way i hit plenty of deadwood and rocks that brought bruises to my legs.

The finish point of the raft race was actually a river bank near the finish point of our hike so we had to hike back along the previous trail all tired and soaking wet, we made the trail muddy and i fell plenty of times with mudd all over, seriously not a pleasant feeling plus i lost most of my energy at the river which made the hike almost unbearable but with a lot of slipping and sliding and also effort we reacher the river that we first crossed to get back to the village but this time we crossed it by foot cause it was shallow plus we wanted to clean ourselves off along the way. Before reaching the village we played around at the river as a las thing to do before we get ready to depart. Once we reached the village, everyone was super tired and there was food that was fixed for us, some ate first then showered, others did vice versa, i did the former because it was a pretty long wait before i was able to use the showers. Once everyone was full, clean and recharged we started our journey back to the drop off... then used the bus... then the boat...

The trip was awesome and i couldn't imagine anything better, what still sticks in my head was everyone's laughs and smiles during the whole trip. we joked around and helped each other a lot. what started as a trip with strangers that i've seen before but never known ended as a an exciting bonding trip with friends, i didn't expect to meet with such extraordinary characters on that day and i was very lucky that i did and get to share that experience with them... and fyi our trip ended when we reached BSB at 5 pm...

I think its best for me to upload the pics later cause i need to get the rest of the pics from a friend, only then will it be complete~ until then, Ciao~

Yanz Birthday~

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO SII NURHAYANTI A.K.A YANZ JR A.K.A YANZ LBTB~ HAHAHA~ SORRY EH LMBAT AH, APA JWA GANYA SEHARI~ SMOGA PNJANG UMUR BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA~ ANYWAYS~ SII YANZ MAKIN TUA, WAWAWAWA~

The Beach

These pics were taken during the second last day of school where a fraction of us GBL/GBC5 went to the berakas beach, it was so kewl yo!!! i know these pics should've been uploaded ages ago but my internet connection back then was totally dissin me so i wasn't able to upload any pics, anyways during the beach day, it was actually my first tyme going to berakas beach and lemme tell you the place is beautiful but the beach is so god damn exposed to the sun so beware of sunburn, hahhaha~ had so much fun there singing, joking around and what not~ hahaha~ just wanted to post the pics...

Same story all over again

Hey guys, as you know, its the start of the school holidays soo hooray... anyways i havent been feeling well cause frankly i feel betrayed and untrusted by my parents, yet they still have the nerve to act as though as nothing has happened~ i hate school holidays cause you dont get to meet your friends much and there is no one to comfort you when your feelin down~ thats what im feeling right now, down... i dunno why but its the same old story again, everytime im at home, i get depressed, sad and somehow maniacly emotional, which are traits of mine that i do not care to express cause these feelings bring out the ugly side of me, instead of my usual care-free and optimistic self, what comes out is a pessimistic and gloomy stranger... i know that its normal that everyone has 2 sides, but i prefer to prevent my unappealing side from surfacing cause... others may be affected by it, unintentionally though, but not Zid or shall i say Donut (he wants me to start calling him Donut) cause he understands me, so much that he lets everything slide when my dark side takes over~ even if some of my words may wound him deeply, he still lets it slide, for that im very thankful to have Donut as a friend, better yet as my bestfriend~

Speaking of Bestfriends, i've got great news regarding Freaky... Well, its really great news and im so very happy for him! Very2 much! Well, Freaky's in a relationship and he's bagged himself a total hottie! (that lucky bastard) seriously i envy him soo much cause the way he describes how they interact with each other is soo heart gushingly cute! It seems Freaky is soo much in love that i hope their relationship blossoms and i give them my blessings~ He's so lucky to have found love, cant say the same for me~ sometimes i wonder everyday... I always fall for people yet no-one ever falls for me~ yes, its a very bitter thing to think about, anyways congrats Freaky you lucky bastard =)

Haha, it is somehow refreshing to know that something good is happening to the people you care about, For instance Freaky's in a relationship, Donut seems to be progressing in they ways of love himself (though he needs to practice on detecting hints), Nysa and Yaya's relationship is very overwhelming, so full of love and commitment on both sides, Ash is at KL right now enjoying a vacation with his family, Bibi on the other hand is probably acting like a love sick puppy right now missing Ash and Naqib's off to his motherland for the school Holidays~ So many good things happening, yes, it really does feel refreshing~ *breathes in* *picturing things in mind* *breathes out* i think i feel a lil bit better, heheh~

Oh and i almost forgot, soon i'll be uploading pics from our trip to Berakas Beach which was awesome and very much the bomb, it felt very nice how me along with my friends got together having a great time, enjoying the ocean breeze and each other's company, not to mention having a very fun time singing-along with each other with our own lyrics to boot~ Hehehe~ all in all it was a great event, truly a GBL tradition even if the gang was incomplete, i enjoyed it very much~ Thank you friends and Happy Holidays

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There is barely anything happening in my life thats worth to blog about but you know that little road bump i had with the PTEK SA... Well all of it has been sorted out and im thanking god that i dodged that freakin bullet BUT the pk said that since this was my first offense, he's gave me a first warning which is also the last warning saying that i'll risk suspension if i have another discipline case which is bloody bullshit cause baru jwa skali and then bgi last warning tya! fucking newbie jwa eh skulahnya ani eh! spatutnya 3 kali plg warning barutah punishment, ani kn mati kali paluinya! ugh, PTEK is getting more fucked up than ever all because of that bloody fucked up superman and that fuckin butt ugly wonder woman... breathe in... breathe out... breathe in... breathe out... Patience is a virtue... Anyways, ive been very bored at home so mcm banyak banyakkn DVD yg ku bli and right below is the list of the DVD's i've watched while i was bored... PS: EAS klasku be aircon nyanta! Mwahahahaha! Akhirnya! Mwahahaha!

1. Dexter season 3

2. Avatar: the last airbender season 3

3. Rental Magica

4. Angel's Feather

5. Shuffle season 2 (Memories)

Bad Luck

Today is not my fucking day! because first of all i think im in a state of shock cause the May/June AS exams are getting nearer and im not ready at all!!! So thats why my mood at school have seen better days, on top of my exam shock moodiness, i along with Nysa, Ash and BB were sent to the SA all because we went out of school for a little while during our PS and on Monday we have to see the teacher about this predicament and the way he talked to us was kind of like an executioner, he said that on monday he'll decide on what punishment to give to us whether we'll have to face the principal or our guardians are gonna get called, gila!!!! kluar tym PS tanpa kebenaran TAPI hukuman nya macam kedapatan besigup wh!!! WTF!!! and because of this little thing, my stress level is way up!!! Ugh~~~~ Fuckin PTEK, first offense kaliah... for this year plg tuu, mudahan th personal file from MD nda kna bwa2, atu krg, lau kna bwa... tabal plg file kmi.... ugh, whatever, i'll just deal with this on monday, its probably ludicrous to punish us irrationally sadangkn apa jwa ganya kesalahan tani atu...

I really hope to dodge this little road bump, honestly, jilama lai kluar skulah tanpa kebenaran, nda jwa kna tagur, tkana tya jwa cgu yg brabisly takes her job seriously which is very kesian yet pathetic... mcm nada kraja lain tah!!! Wow!!! its not even mid-year and were already famous, nda plg, tym kna bwa ke SA bnyak plg org mliat, pukima bnar eh! palir! pucung! klantit! burit! chicken shit! ass kisser! wooooooo~~~~~~ im venting right now so... Granny fucking slut of an asshole son of a bitch ass licking shit eating finger fucking whore!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SORRY FOR MY COLOURFUL VOCABULARY

No Sleep Tonight

I havent been sleeping well yo! within these 2 days i've developed a sleeping problem, im sleeping only 2 hours a day, gila wah tu yo!!! Kalat mata plg, this is due to the responsibilities of being an Upper Six which is very2 tiring like hell... Even now as im creating this post, my eyes are drowsy but i cant sleep because i need to study for a test tomorrow, i havent slept that much for the past 2 days because of the stacking Maths assignments and Sociology homework... I was gonna bring up the topic of the "produce" i've seen at school but im totally hammered right now, damn maths assignments, speaking of which, my math teacher has been changed, the new teacher is like the polar opposite of my previous maths teacher which is actually good but im not sure on the way he teaches because i like si Rugah's style of teaching better than this newone but i loathe her personality, within time, i'll eventually figure him out... Now i think i'll sleep tonight rather than studying so goodnight~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

No Rest For The Wicked

Okay so my Blog has been soooooo Dead~~~~~~~ Well thats because there has been a lack of inspiration in my life especially in PTEK... Like Hellooooo PTEK plg, theres no reason to stare in wonder and amazement basically because theres nothing there, just a patch of modern architecture stranded in the middle of a desert plain... No nature, no beauty resulting to lack of muse and zero inspiration... My life has been a total blur really but at the same time hectic due to the presence of the "Stales", mainly, Ash, Bibi, Saiful and Kamai at PTEK so the days now are slightly less bitter but much more sweet... Hahahaha, So i've already received my statement of entry for the June AS and i can feel the pressure sinking into my gut, i really am nervous mainly because of Maths and Socio, ELT and EAS i may be able to handle... i really need to focus on my studies but im actually having a hard time not skipping my ELT and EAS class, apparently im (according to the teacher) the student who always skips class, always late for class and always sleeps in class, wow! soo many labels and its not even the middle of the year yet!!! Woooh~~~~

But mind you, i actually love the ELT and EAS teacher which is the same teacher actually, he's actually lovable and very funny but im really losing interest in my English subjects because my imagination hasn't been properly exploited sooo my imagination really needs some exercise~~~~ i wanna write fictional stories!!!! but since this is the last year, hopefully, so there is no rest, all work, work, work, work and work and definitely no room for play... All work and no play is such a sucky way of living life but hey, you gotta do what you gotta do, sacrifices must be made in this case, im sacrificing the fun part of my life, eventhough its not true cause im still hanging out and doing stuff with my friends, hahahah!!! sacrifices must be made but i wont sacrifice anything cause with work there must be play and with play there must be work, its all in finding the complete balance between the 2 soooo i'll work hard and party even harder!!!! oh yeah!!!! but to simply put into a phrase of the work given this year;

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Been 5 days since i've blogged... Well, this is partly because that PTEK is a school load of shit and boredom and apparently, alos has loads of Freshies!!! i think about 700+ compared to MD's 400+ frshies, our freshies are crowding all over the place!!! Seniors now through my own vision are fading into the background as the Freshies take on the spotlight... Anyways i really loathe PTEK now for taking on more Freshies that i think are more for them to handle, im not hating the BE's im just frustrated over the lack of places to chill since the GS was off limits! plus its kinda weird seeing all the colourful uniforms that make up the freshies because apparantly PTEK have not thought up their own uniform, and the Stales said that there is an insufficient amount of teachers therefore giving the BE's 6 blocks instead of 5, whoa! now i know im sure that PTEK is way in over its head... Everywhere crowded, the focal point of the BE's are the canteen, the hole and basically the drop-off area... Ughhh~~~~ STREEEESSSSSSS!!!! GILEERRRRRR!!! Well, thats all, and MD, apparently is very sunyi even with the BE addition, ada hasil khaliah but apparently the hasil has been targeted~~~ Too Bad, So Sad...

First of March...

Today is the first day of March, i know there's no significance or anything about today but just felt the need to blog... this week has been very hectic for me cause i spent most of my week with my friends whom i cherish and hold dear to my heart... Wow, that sounds so cheesy... hahah, but really, you can have a million friends but true friends are one in a million... Woooh, im on fire with this cheesiness! Anyways So yesterday there was supposed to be the first meeting for The Book/Film Club now dubbed "The Review" for reason unknown to me cause i didn't attend the first meeting yesterday cause went to hang with the friends whom i love, Hong, Freak, YaYa and Nysa, its been a while since we just sat down and talked, i mean really talked like we used to last year...

Anyways, this march is gonna be the first of quite a few things, Its gonna be the first month for the Freshie BE's, Its gonna be my First month of entering all my classes (hopefully) and also the first month where ECA's get active (hopefully)... Hahaha... and oh i almost forgot, this month will be the month where the first school holiday will be commenced, Oh Yeah!!! hahaha!!! I guess thats all i wanted to say and FYI (For Your Information),
This year i've joined 2 ECA's which are;

1. Creative Writing Club

2. Book/Film Club (The Review)